About The Movie

Went to the movie today with my poly mate.

Heck, the movie was great! So great I ended up laughing real hard in the beginning and sobbing at the ending.

It was a relief actually.. I wanted so much to have someone to catch a romance comedy with me instead of some 'not-so-scary' horror flicks which just sent your appetite off the next plate of spaghetti or something that you can't make out any storyline from.. just stupid noises and weird make ups.

But it ain't within my control every time I got out with my high school friends. They talk about being accommodative, about watching a cool nice movie without any horror in it and yet at the end of the day, I'm still wasting my time and money on something I wouldn't see.

I don't feel respected. I think that pretty much sum up how I feel about them right now or how about our relationship.

I didn't know if the situation would have changed if only I had changed my approach with my friends. Sometimes it feels like I am the one, allowing them to go along with too much of their wishes and ignoring my feelings thus causing me to react in such a way.

It might be, but I'm too tired to start evaluating about it now.


A couple of weeks ago I had my birthday party. In school, with my poly mates. I did not attend the yearly party I would have been involved in this year round, reason one being the fact that I'm broke, and secondly that I am really getting enough nonsense.

I want to be sane, to prove my stand and how I can be independant.

But somehow something is missing..