avoidance

avoidance

noun
deliberately avoiding; keeping away from or preventing from happening.

thats what im feeling right now.. or should i say. i've been feeling it this way since donkey years ago. im a total quitter and i'd dig a hole in the ground, sneak back into my ninja shell at every opportunity.

i don feel like meeting up friends, neighbours or anyone for that matter. i would even avoid my mom if i could. im thinking in lines along these:

• movies? i'd catch it on youtube.
• dinners? i'll have it with tv.
• shopping? singapore's too small and everywhere's the same!
• work? its a total no-life, i get my pay so not on time and what? i have to take the attitudes and bus fares?
• school? yeah right, i dont even know how's my new classmates gonna be like. and the planning people are suckos.

as you can see, im pretty much a negative person right now despite chewing on small little 3.5g calbury. it's not working, the chocolate way.

whoever says chocolate helps elevate your mood is so wrong to me at this moment. it makes you fat and yes, how elevated would you be when you're heavier on the scale..

and on a total randomized mode, i felt like writing/starting on a story. :)



from the total-wrecked-and-randomized,
Charps!