有点点郁闷.

有些时候我心情是很差, 很低落. 有些事我尽管有多么的在意也不能说出来, 写下来. 我觉得好对不起自己. 因为感觉友人都在读着故事所以偶尔拒笔. 自己虽然是个重视言语自由, 男女平等的现代人却又老土想得到百分只百的privacy. 就像古人常恨在街上论自家事.

可是两者之间却有着很多的矛盾. 所以觉得好累, 好辛苦.

就像现在吧. 不是什么大问题, 只不过觉得想藏起来一会儿. 我想, 也许, 明天会更好. 这时候力宏的歌对我来说有着更深的意义.

不完整的旋律 - 王力宏( 落叶生根专辑)

心里有个旋律
不完整的歌曲
你是否听得出来
我多了一拍
最近世界有点奇怪
好象缺了一块
心里那个旋律
未完成的情绪
如果你在倾听
是否打动了你
说实在我也不确定
怎样比较好听
不完整的旋律
没什么结局
却是我真实的声音
不完整的旋律
勇敢地唱给你听
填满你我不完整的感情

Sunday Blues

I don't know if this is meant to be a joke or something but a friend came and msg me this.

Him: hey, my dp emo not.

Me: *nonchalently* to me is like one whole mass of hair blocking the camera. cannot get your emotional part.

Him: you're not a sentimental person.

Me: That's for me to know and for you to guess.

Him: ...

I don't get it. Feeling emo is already a bad enough feeling. but why.. why must we still display it? I think I'm more emo than him because i started asking him to back off because of my emo-ness. lol

Nevermind me, I'm feeling blue. It's sunday blues tomorrow. ~~~

tagged!

I'm supposed to post it up yesterday but i didn't finish the tagging part so didn't post it up till today. Being tagged for this game by...  iris aka tallie!

- Favourites -
Colour: violet
Food: mala ban mien in rp
Song: Lee hom as always.. current favourite is -zai na li

Day of the week: wednesday! HIPPIE

- Current -
Mood: sian-ed
Taste: disgusting taste of fungus + cao tsng porridge.
Clothes: green rp tee, brown short.
Time: 01:00am
Surroundings: my room, dimly lited with tv mute.
Thoughts: tomorrow work. sian. money come come. pp. sian. inspiration come come!

- First -
Best Friend: wileen. 14 years back.
Crush: primary school
Movie: Jurassic park
Lie: my first lie? where got?! i very innocent one can?! *PS: okay la, i forgot! -.-
Music: cantonese songs by andy lau in movie acting so cool one. :D

- Last So Far -
Drink: plain water in an attempt to flush away the fungus.
Car Ride: cab~
Movie: i now pronounce you chuck and larry!
Call: shuyun to ask where they aree.
Dated ur best friend guy: SIGH!
Broke the LAW: what is law? i am law.. law of gravity. :D
Been on TV: omg. that was a school event. doing voluntary work.
Kissd someone you don't know: i don kiss people de lor.

- 5 things i'm wearing now ... -
spects
clothes
ok
shit
i dont have 3 more things that im wearing now. -.-

- 4 Things I've Done Today -
go school.
draw mr lor soh faci on the board.
go statistics talk.
go buka puasa with peeps.

- 3 things i can hear right now -
lappie running.
keyboard sounds
dog barkings.

- 2 things i wanna do now -
finish pp.
orh orh.

- 1 thing i'll do when i'm bored ... -
just sleep lor.


- 5 ppl that I TAGGED -
nasri
shuyun
chunsang

anyone on my bloglinks' list.

anyone who is not on my list but still want to do. LOL :D

absolutely pissed

what the hell. this guy from work (aka a new colleague) is pissing me off big time by asking me to call him for the ~!@#$%^&* times when i ask him for address of a ktv. The thing is 1) the phone is damn far from where i am. 2) why should i call just for a blardy address?

His reply: "because i like to talk while i type."

WTH?!!?!?!?!?!!??!

****

and I'm in sucha mood i wish i can strangle those dao people who don't bother to talk to us. like wth?!

Can someone fetch me a basket of carrots to shove it up their ass? *pissed*

When everything seems good..

Today's team kinda fun. Again, I'm grouped with Chuyun and Liyana. Crazy people! We attended a talk on statistics (so guai i know) and most of us fell asleep in there.

To quote Suhaili's words, the speaker's voice was like music to our ears. Ok, perhaps not music but more of a lullaby. Heh!

So on the way back we actually invented some names for us. Malay name for us! Mine is Siti Nur Charmaine, Weiliang's eh. mohammad kuku, chuyun's Siti Nur Chu chu yun and so on.

Everyone was crazy.

****

After school didn't get out to meet up with tallie or lollipop. Ended up back home before i got out for dinner with the peeps at the kopitiam. Big group la. 13 people, playing the pictionary game.

Funny thing is when chun sang thought that kaylong and long kang is the same thing and kept acting the wrong thing over! Funny thing is when words like pole came out and I almost thought I might have to do a pole dance when Nasri saw it and answered it correctly.

Am back home now and trying to make sure that I'm not poisoned. Just saw the huge growth of fungi on the cap of the oyster sauce after I cooked it into the porridge, ate it and feeling disgusted about it.

I still have to work tomorrow. ARRGGG.

Most expensive tissue ever.

Had my first lesson of facilities planning today. I find the faci ok but I have no idea why the guy in our team seems so quiet. The only time I heard him talking to me is when the others were gone and he's asking about the work and he have this really serious look on him..

Then during presentation time I asked a question and the team might have got the wrong idea because after that some others asked questions too and one of them replied with "since you want to argue.."

Like wth lor?! Who wants to argue with you.. It's just that I have a question and I just asked it. Even if you have no idea just say no idea la. If me I would do the same thing too. Also, I wasn't trying to be funny or anything. I think its okay to sound defensive but don't get so defensive that you think people are trying to sabo you or something. You've got the wrong target. I'm not that lame. I've grown out of it. ARGGGG!

And I got this old auntie who cheated me of my feelings just now at AMK Hub. Saw her selling tissue and thought maybe I can get some from her. So she said it's $1 but i didn't have small change and passed her a $5 note to change. Who knows she held on to it, said she has no change and say "nevermind la, take it i sell to you" and pass me 3 packets of tissue paper.

$5 for 3 tissue paper.. :(

I feel sad la although i sort of tell myself the auntie could take it to makan dinner. But my heart broke because my wallet also broke.. Especially after spending $138 on my contact lenses. Sigh!

Told mom and guess what? She said I deserved it.. she even told me something she WANTS me to learn from her. Yes. LEARN from her. So these are the followings.

• Never donate to people who walks unsteadily. Reason: Some of them forged it. No matter how poor thing they looked. Evidence: Mom got brother to donate to this poor old man long time back and this 'poor old man' followed mom home and asked to be mom's father. like. WTF?!

 

• Never, never donate to people who sits there with one gong gong(can to put money in). Reason: Some of them have high esteem. Too high if you ask me. Evidence: I put $2 into this gong gong held by a man at mrt station before. Although he look like he probably can work but.. aiya just give a little lor. You know what. He TSK TSK me. WTH..

 

• Never donate to auntie who look poor thing. If you must, take small change. Reason: Auntie will not return you money. Evidence: My dinner. :(

 

Not like I'm a scrouge or anything but sometimes.. it really doesn't pays to be good. I seldom do volunteer work now so I hope every cents or dollars that I donate can help someone. But hor.. sometimes.. I just feel like slapping those people for being so..evil.

Yes. Evil. :(

*go back to whine to georgie ~!@#%^&$.*

transferred

I've just been transferred to another location to work. I guess it's a good thing, since i'm not really happy with the work now at the current location. One person divided into 5, promoting anything but my company's product. One day get at least 3 calls and sms from the chaser from hell who just have to get me to report to him about how many sales i've got and whatsoever, when my direct boss only ask me about it like once or twice a month, usually when its the end of month.

Moreover, job at current location is slack. It's so slack that there's no motivation at all now..Basically i'll just keep myself awake, try to get and stop people from fidgeting with the devices(damn those itchy fingers) and the lamers who gave me lame advices.

Lame advices is when you tell me you know alot, but you're telling me craps that i know is bullshit.

I miss working at the central location. It's still boring but at least i get to help out with the other departments and get to hold a real conversation once in a while. Although im surrounded by cameras but at least i don't get the hellish experience of calls for me to report my sales like every hour.

It's not like my sales is bad. I could clear stock but hey, your product gonna make it alright? and again.. how much are you paying me to work for you?

Geez.

I guess one of the other reason i wanna get away from there is because of the transportation. I have to take the fucking train. Did i tell anyone that i hate taking trains? Give me a bus anytime! I'll snooze on it throughout the ride.

**Update: the hellish chaser just gave me hints this saturday to be his promoter for his upcoming product. I am thankful to my boss for transferring me away.

Random Quizzes

I'm a Porsche 911!

You have a classic style, but you're up-to-date with the latest technology. You're ambitious, competitive, and you love to win. Performance, precision, and prestige - you're one of the elite,and you know it.

Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

I'm a Talent!

You're a risk-taker, and you follow your passions. You're determined to take on the world and succeed on your own terms. Whether in the arts, science, engineering, business, or politics, you fearlessly express your own vision of the world. You're not afraid of a fight, and you're not afraid to bet your future on your own abilities. If you find a job boring or stifling, you're already preparing your resume. You believe in doing what you love, and you're not willing to settle for an ordinary life.

Talent: 49%
Lifer: 44%
Mandarin: 36%

Take the Talent, Lifer, or Mandarin quiz.

Steamboat Gathering

Just arrived home from a great gathering with the les clinque. It's always fun to gather with them but its always hard to find time to get together with everyone so whenever we go out, it's usually a threes or fours or one to one kind of thing.

However, today we made it! We did our annual favorite thing together and had so much fun! All the steaming hot sessions..

STEAMBOAT SESSION! :D (what are some of you thinking?)

So I met ruiqi, addy after school since I ended early and shopped a little while before we sat ourselves at mos burger for a little rest and while waiting for the rest. We waited for quite a while *ahem* before everyone arrives. However, when we arrive to the hot pot restaraunt, there was so much people and it just didn't make it easier for us when we have to wait a long time for the seats in a humid place.

So the guru of the street aka Vette took us to this steamboat(or some call it hot pot) place 10mins walk away and we had our very nice hot pot + crapping session in an air-conditioned environment.

Personally, I like the idea of having a mala hot pot but the mala seems too oily. So oily I had this bowl of oil that's supposed to be soup. Ended up drinking soup from the other side of the soup(you can choose 2 soup base). As usual, we couldn't leave till we had our fill of sarcastic remarks, insults, pokings and laughters.

And finding a successor for xingjie's black hole reputation. Currently, Vette takes the lead! For continuously bringing 6 slices of watermelon to our table and finishing 3 off all by herself when everyone is so full.(not inclusive of the other stuffs that we ate okay)

No camera whoring this time round.. and no zhong ji mi ma with the leftovers. Reason being that its getting late and everyone had to catch the last train home. Me? Catch a cab home lor.

Felt so sad because over the years, it's always returning home with the usual people. We'll take the same train to the station before we split up and I'd be walking home or something with Vette and ruiqi if there's no more buses. Now is like so poor thing lor.

And the cab just scared the hell outta me when the meter starts running damn fast at the strike of 11.30pm. Not only does the 10% starts growing from the fare, the meter seems to come alive on its own jumping at 3 times the speed it normally does.

I swear I wasn't kidding because I timed it.

Yes. I TIMED IT.

Heng the cab was driving out of ave 12 when it turns 11.30pm. If not I'll have to sell my butt or something to repay my cab fare debt. Lol!

On a random note, there's this guy who called me twice after I got home. sms back to ask who he is and he replied his name is ah long.

WTH?! Ah long!? *mind forms image of loanshark*

Moreafter, seconds later he actually called me again. So i answered his call and it turns out that he don't know why his handphone got my number and its registered under my chinese name.

OMG la. And he kept calling me by my chinese name. Geez. But the only people who mainly call me by that name are from primary or secondary school. We tried to figure out who the hell insert my name into his handphone but couldn't figure it out and just ended the call with a thanks and sorry.

Whoever know this and know who is the culprit tell me okay? KNN. Want to write also write ang moh name mah! Where can broadcast my chinese name?!

That person really never die before lor, if he or she's trying to play a prank on me. -.-!

Pipes in Action

I am not called a drama addict for nothing. Just 2 days ago I was still chiong-ing this hong kong drama, 2 weeks ago the ghost whisperer and now I just finished My Girl.

Yeah right, i know. it's been a damn long time since this show's been out. I remembered last sem or even before some of the drama mates already gotten hooked to it.

I slow mah.

With the busy schedule to chiong 3 to 4 dramas serial at one time (or sometimes none at all when the lazy one aka me is being hardworking), how can one expect to finish the drama by the speed they are coming out on youtube, videoshops and other sources anyway?

So I finished the ending and cried sooo hard. Perhaps it's not about crying hard but the tears just flow. Calling it a water spray is an understatment. I would call it the water pipe with ultra strong pressure forces.

Just take a look at the speed and quantity of it flows.

So in summary, this week have been a week of weeping, crying, sobbing and tearing. Damn those drama shows! Damn those who made me cried! ::(

Suddenly I am missing the old me who kept everything inside. Tears, precious like gold. Perhaps one drop can get me a thousand dollars. Wooo. That would be fantastic! :D

Ok anyway, I was working halfway when I realise suddenlyy.. just suddenly. My spects seems to be so.. not balanced. Turns out that the 1 of the plastic piece of thing that holds the spect on the nose dropped.

Since I've been contemplating to get back into lenses for like ..forever, i decided to get the guy to fix my poor spects and check out the price and everything.

I just spent $60 on 15 pairs of lenses. I'm not sure if its a good or bad news that my astimagtism is higher than my degree and I have to order my lens instead of grabbing one off the shelf.

I just saw in my friendster than my dear friend Weiliang have given me a comment. Which is good and fun and exceptionally good news for me because..

Tuesday might be a holiday. HAHA!

I hope he's not kidding me. Or else..

I will ask for more porn in exchange for compensation. For hurting my feelings, telling me is holiday and ending up with another longggg day!

Armour protected

Sometimes you get tired of everything. You ask why you're trying so hard and no one's trying hard other than you. Why the world don't understand you and why you're doing all these silly things for people who probably ain't worth it.

Don't worry. There's still me.

The bitch who just did the same damn thing you're doing now. Are we supposed to be alone, pretends to be oblivious to everything, pretend to be strong before people ever realises the difference.

..or will they never?

It took so much courage to tear down these weapons and vest but if all it gets is pain then wouldn't it be better for one to be equipped and really to strike again?

At least I won't get hurt.

Applying the Laws of Physics to personal r/s

Most imaginative restaraunt EVER

Click on the picture to view it. This is one of those things that many thought about but is not feasible.

Imagine it coming alive. Oh my gawk!

Evening with ex-W14G peeps

I didn't get to school in time today. I ended up waking up at 2.30pm, when it's probably time to get home in another 30mins from school. Shit me! My bodyclock is all messed up and everything.

Especially when I 'risk' my sleeping hours from 6pm to go buka puasa with my beloved w14g mates you know?!

The evening was great. Had murthabak at this famous prata place at Woodgrove with them and this is the first time that I come to know that muslims they break fast after listening to the radio -.-

Anyway! As usual the dinner was filled with dirty jokes (from the guys la. Me and shuyun very guai one) and stupid things going on. We had this game whereby one person have to say something like "I never wear bra before" and those who wore it before have to slap their face.

So of course, me and shuyun slap our face first la. :(

As the game proceeded, more 'truths' were revealed. Like who crushes on who.. who smacked people butt before and all kinds of weird questions.

Sharime and Chun Sang is the winner in this game. I think they slapped themselves the most. Lol!

Shuyun and I were going like 0.0 when the guys started their session again because we were trying so hard to 'preserve and purify' our image ever since yr 1 sem2 and yet everything is ruined everytime we go out with the guys.

And sharime got his 'masterpiece' on the plate that probably looks like some *ahem* asset.

.......

I told you no image already! Sigh! =(

Personality Profile : INTJ

"INTJs are natural leaders, although they usually choose to remain in the background until they see a real need to take over the lead. When they are in leadership roles, they are quite effective, because they are able to objectively see the reality of a situation, and are adaptable enough to change things which aren't working well. They are the supreme strategists - always scanning available ideas and concepts and weighing them against their current strategy, to plan for every conceivable contingency. "

"To outsiders, INTJs may appear to project an aura of "definiteness", of self-confidence. This self-confidence, sometimes mistaken for simple arrogance by the less decisive, is actually of a very specific rather than a general nature; its source lies in the specialized knowledge systems that most INTJs start building at an early age. When it comes to their own areas of expertise -- and INTJs can have several -- they will be able to tell you almost immediately whether or not they can help you, and if so, how."

I am INTJ! The mastermind, the strategist. Everytime I took the test, it's the same results. I think I'm not so fated to be a 'feeler'.

Anyway, the profile for INTJ (me!) is over here. Take a look if you've nothing to do. Lol! :D

On the first day of school..

Alright, I'm sorry for the lack of updates. I mean it's been busy at school *ahem cough cough* and well I've been a really good girl in class.

Ok, at least I think so. No? -.-

Anyway, this is like one of the funniest thing that happened on the first day of school that got EVERYONE laughing at me. Especially when Tim have to broadcast it to the other ex-classmates when we met them that day.

Evil, isn't him? :(

*Suhaili and me walking past the agora towards the door*

*A handsome guy walk towards us*

Leng zai: Hi, we're doing a survey, there's only 5 questions.

Suhaili: No..

Me: *wanted to say no thanks but ended up saying.."No problem" *walks away*

*Once outside the door*

Me to Suhaili: Hey, did I just said no problem and walked away?

Suhaili: *started laughing away*

.....

You all should know mah. Our school seldom got shuai ge and well.. that guy was really good-looking. So I stole a few more looks at him and ended up saying the wrong thing.

How I wish there's someone like that in our class. Then I won't be doing my work. Maybe when I watches his presentation. Lol!

The rain is over and..

*After a 20mins jog and 14 storeys up the stairs..*

*poof poof* *cough cough*

*Mumbles*

"Sigh, old already also don't have stamina anymore. Time to go jog often around the estate."

*drop onto the floor*

Misery of the guai-kia

The misery of the guai kia. Like me. I am very guai. So guai until I thought I would vomit blood after being targetted by my mom. Somehow I think I am the one who gets all her funny tactics.

Just like this.

*open door to get out*

Mom: girl ar, help me off the water tap (when she's at the basin)

Girl: *thinking* (Ta ma de, cannot do yourself meh. Nevermind, I be guai kia) *off the tap and get ready for the door again*

Mom: Oei, cannot wash the cup is it. (the cup that i was intending to wash but left on the table to off the tap)

Girl: *run back to wash cup and run off for the door again*

Mom: *shout over the living room* Oei! Come and wash the dishes!

Girl: *thinking (TMD!! I want go out!!!)*

After finishing all the dishes..

Girl: *run off for the door like for the #4873476294824 time.*

Mom: hey!...

Girl: *look at the sky raining down happily*

Mom: *laughing really LOUDLY and HEARTILY* hahahha.. raining leh..

Girl: WTFFF!!!??!?!?!!?!?

Mom: You scolding me? I ask the sky to rain one. Hahahahahhhahahahaa...

Girl: *run into room and fumes like a rice cooker*

And I'm that girl la! Tell me.. Why should i be the guai kia?!?!?!

Bro is getting out of the door now on his first attempt and and and.. mom hasn't called him back even once.

I think my mom hates me secretly thats why! :((

The night before this

I was on msn with a friend from long long time back. He still sounds like the same confident guy I knew back then and I know how much pride he places in the things he do.

Because everything is about honour and pride to him. At least on the surface.

I used to speak with such ease, joke and listened on the phone thinking life's great. How life might just go the way we planned and end up with the things we aim to do. How things would go the right way and how happiness comes our way.

And then I got banged so badly, I thought to myself and said no way. That's impossible. It's not anyone's fault but mine because I got so eaten up by the emotions in me, said things I didn't mean and didn't even said hi anymore when we meet on the streets.

Wow, incredible. I never knew I'm such a monster in me. But now I know and I'll keep it in check. Phew.

So I finally got the chance and the courage to speak to him again and its good. Even if it's just on msn. We chatted briefly about how things goes and just when I thought there's never a chance we can ever meet again, god sent me a good news.

From his lips. (ok, his fingers.)

He is living NEAR me!

Ok ok, now cool down. I mean I'm excited not because I'm still into him (or maybe I am) but the idea of having an old friend living near to you is nice. I mean, it makes everything so familiar. Maybe we'll have a lunch together, maybe we'll be at starbucks together for a short chat or something. It's gonna be real nice.

Never mind the fact that he is living 4 streets away, 20mins walk from where I stay. It's still near. As long as its in the estate I'm in, it's near. Wooohooo!

And that's how life is going on for me, meeting ups and getting people into my life again. I felt like a stalker because I eh. knew his news.

I mean its hard not to know when I'm on close terms with someone that is of close relations and sometimes you just clicked and started chatting about somebody..

What type of person do you attract?

 

What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract Yuppies! You attract the very well-dressed, job oriented type of people. They usually have their finances together, are 'middle of the road' on most topics, generally happy with the 'main-stream' of things. If it is stability you are after, these are good people to attract, if you seek adventure, it may be time for an overhaul.
You attract geeks!
You attract models!
You attract artsy people!
You attract unstable people!
You attract rednecks!
What type of person do you attract? Quizzes for MySpace

 

I attract yuppies! :D

Anyway my results for the semester was kinda bad. But I'm surprised at the overall though, almost thought I have to spend the wednesdays in school and maybe even worst.

Operations Planning: C

Statistics: B

Cost Decisions: B+

Inventory Management: B

Overall Total GPA: 3.21

Thank god for the blessings. =)

The art of bitching

Many times I bitch about people in my blog.

When I looked up the archives, I see nothing but loads and loads of bitching involved about a particular classmate, a particularly bad and awful customer. Despite me blogging it out, the forces that were trapped within me sometimes still.. have nowhere to be directed to.

So i guess..and i thought. Maybe I should find a new way of bitching that will sooth my throat, sooth my fingers and sooth the air inside.

Opps. I meant the negative forces in me when im down, upset or angry ya know?

I shall start setting scenarios. Just like what I always do in dreams anyway. Whack them, slap them and be a sadist on my blog just as im in my dreams. I'll be just so happy and entertained by my weird thoughts and ideas on how to make them wise up that I'll be grinning and not frowning anymore.

Whoa, I am really a sadist lor~ :S Someone save me from my saddistic nature.. :D

Movie Review: Ratatouille

Today caught Ratatouille with Chun Sang, Nasri and Shuyun. It was a good movie.. with cute moments, happy moments, sad moments and touching moments. I thought it was really cool since I felt that the graphics really look kinda real in some aspects. Take the hair!!

The hair of Remy! Or his brother that brownish, plump rat who eats anything in the junk! There were moments when I look at Remy and suddenly I thought I saw Motashi's shadow in him.

Like when I wrapped her with my palm and talk to her when I'm down. Saying things like "do you think I'm wrong? if you think im wrong climb up. if not go down" and you know what? She will be depicting the answer I'm thinking in my mind..

I missed Motashi so much everytime I see a hammie or anything that reminds me of her. So when I saw the scene of Remy and garbage boy.. when garbage boy placed his only hope on Remy and set him out of the bottle only to see Remy running off for his life, he was so dejected.

But Remy came back with cautions, wondering if he could trust this man.. or if he should help this man.

That moment I was so touched lor. I mean yeah, it means nothing. But I've seen that look on Motashi before. The look Remy gave when he almost got thrown into the water. That makes me all guilty again because that was the last look I saw on Motashi.

No, I didn't abandon her. Or maybe I did in a way because she died from a miscarriage and despite me trying all ways (except going to a vet, my parents were against forking out the money. Sigh) she didn't get better. Perhaps its because of her age but still.

I was so guilt-striken after that I didn't rear any more hammies after that.

And I'm still feeling so.

So! If you're feeling like you need a little warm fuzzy feeling, a little jolt-me-up-from-the-cold-machine-that-i've-become kind of thing, try it. Watch it. It's worth it! :)

I would rank it a 4/5 on the whole, but because it reminds me of motashi, I'll give it a full score because although the graphics were real, the emotions punch aint enough for the average people i guess. I mean, unless, you're talking about people like me who reared a hammie before and got reminded and got some sort of teary right?

and..

Motashi is still the best. :)

#1 bimbotic post of the year.

This is xuan bin (玄彬). 他很帅. 很有魅力. If i go gaga over lee hom for his music, i go gaga over xuan bin for his shows!

First it was kim sam soon as the little bratty boss. Then now, its the guy with the stumbles in Snow Queen (雪之女王).

I also go gaga over his appearance in the cosmetic ad of that.. eh.. very very fine powder.

BUT! I think i like his look in snow queen better. or the advertistment. Because he just looks so cute(and ahem. sexy. LOL!) Wanna see the proof?

Conclusion: He is very, very, very cute. This is the most... bimbotic post ever. SIGH! :D

TO MY DEAREST ADDY SOH

HAPPY BIRD DAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! HAPPY EVERYDAY!

Thanks for being my movie kaki, thanks for being my book kaki (is there a book kaki!?) thanks for being my suan-ing friend, thanks for being my pokey friend (although you always gave me orh-qing lor!), thanks for being my friend who listens to me.

Stay happy always and welcome you to the world of.. 19's!! :D

Now you don't call me old ok! Same age liao! :DDDD

 

From your lovely, dearest, cutest, most innocent friend,

Charmaine :)

The Peanut Porridge tale

I had peanut porridge for lunch today. It was delicious. And cooked by mom.

To think I hate peanuts. I mean.. the big big swollen peanuts in the porridge. :P

The end.

Being asthmatic

It's funny that after several years of being short of asthmatic (i had asthma when i was younger), everyone is saying im like one again.

When i was in vietnam coughing away, chuchu asked why my cough sounds like im having asthma.

Today mom REFUSED me of my canned drink + force me to down my cough syrup saying that it looks my asthma is up again. I think the next step she'd take is refuse me of the aircon. Haiyo!

I think i need to abstain from soft drinks and those fried stuffs for my health reasons. Maybe I should now make it a legal excuse for me to take porridge EVERYDAY.

Now, mom has nothing to say. Heh heh heh!

The thing about the bad trip

Hi guys, I'm back!

Sorry for the lack of updates although the internet were readily available to me in Vietnam. There are simply so many things that happened and for 2 days straight I was so upset and unhappy about the way the school handled things and about my own foolishness in placing my trust in this whole attachment thing.

Now, I'm going to warn that this entry is really going to be 1) long and 2) negative. If you think you don't want to read them just shut this window. Thanks.

Ok, so in my last post I talked about my friend who is my colleague and roomate while we were still there. Let's call her Z. Z took off on Thursday night so I was left on my own. In other words, it means that I will have to be on my own when I go back and forth to work and even after work and on the off-days because the others are in different companies and their off-days are different from me. Take for example, everyday I end work at 5. Perhaps with the time taken to hail a cab, to reach the hotel in total is 30mins or shorter, I will be back latest 5.30pm. The other 2 who are on attachment to a further company, lets call them N and R, will only be back earliest at 6.30pm. Ok, nevermind. The others where the majority are working at will only be back at 9.30pm earliest! OMG!

And since their off-days are so different from mine, I will not be going out with them to explore the cities and whatsoever. I will be like. so isolated and alone from everyone else.

So what happen is, being in a foreign country with a language that most of them do not understand (and vice versa), I decided to ask for a transfer of company. I mean why not? Since one of the guy could just simply ask for a transfer and is gone to the other company the next day and its really for the safety pont.

However, when I called up the in-charge of us over there (let's call him W), he told me that it is impossible. The reason? Well.. my school would get angry. GET ANGRY? AFTER WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO SCREW UP OUR ACCOMODATION?

Seriously, like what the fuck lor. I felt so sad and dejected. So unwanted. Like I'm left all alone and everything. I started to regret why did I try to be responsible to these people and why I stayed behind so that I can at least try and see if I can communicate with them so that if I got the safety point across to them then they can do something about it or transfer me to the other company and then I will stay and finish my attachment.

I know, it may not be so nice to change your attachment after you've been here for like 4days? But is there anything that can be done other than that? Perhaps the company that I'm on attachment might be able to understand and empathise and do something about it. But o matter how I communicated to the faci (who will not be staying through out the whole period but will be back on today, monday because his main task is to be with the study tour, not us attachment people) and the in charge, W over there.. they just kept telling me.

"(insert name of my school) will be angry. Their reputation will be tarnished."

Like what the fuck? If you want a nice reputation then you should have a good planning from the start. Why did Z leave? Why did the other guy ask for a transfer? Why did I want to leave? That's because the planner did a fucking bad job right from the start. I remembered I emphasised on the fact that I don't mind paying for a hotel but the only condition set is that everyone will live together(which is what everyone agreed on) and what did she say OK! And when she told me that we might be staying in the hostel (which is optional) I told her that no, I think we should stick with our original agreement.

But what happened? She just left us in the hostel and did not book our accomodation together with the others at all. Neither did she do the most basic of all by finding out who is living there before deciding if it is okay to put us 2 girls together with a whole house of guys.

And the worst is yet to come. As said, the bedroom smells like pee, the pillow and bedsheet has this browish thing on them and the window at the bathroom CANNOT be shut!

Like. What the!?!?!?

When we get to work, the mentor do not know our background at all. We were made to write this resume which I assume, is for my school to look through and place us in the appropriate companies and job scope.. which would help us in our course of study. The resume should reach the companies at least so that they know who we are. However, that doesn't seems like the case because first, A who is studying science is placed in a factory. In a garment factory. While Z and I have got something to do, we were either told to sit down in the assigned department and do your own thing or you know. Like me la. nothing to do. So we talked to the in charge and had a few talks with him. Believe me when I say we were trying to do the best out of everything because after 1 day of slacking, everyone was TIRED of SLACKING.

Have you ever heard me complaining that I'm too tired to even try to slack? But thats how bad it is. We wanted some jobs to do!

But when Z told us of her intention to leave, really.. my mind was there on the same side as hers. The only reason why I stayed on was that I placed my trust on the base that my transfer will be successful because the school will take our safety seriously. But let me tell you, it's not. The fucking school cared more about their reputation than my safety. It seems to me that I'm not a concerm to them afterall when the next day, which is a friday when I got scammed by this cab driver who despite me asking him to turn in the directions SPECIFICALLY in simple vietnamese and though I showed him the address he just refused to do as I said and drove on this super ulu remote route which made me really felt like I'm so helpless.

When he finally turned through all the little alleys and everything, he turned to me for the cash. Every morning when we took a cab to work and back, it is always 1.50 in sgd. So I have like only that  enough of change and I thought ok, it will be enough. But when it is like double the price, I took out a bigger note which is like sgd 5 and gave it to him. He told me no change. Or rather, he shook his head and look at the 1.50 in my hands then my wallet and grin.

I wanted to leave but he wouldn't let me. Do you have any idea how scary it is? And I wasn't even at the factory gate because he refused to drive there.

Then I have no idea how long it passed before I grabbed my bag and run after throwing the 1.50sgd which i think he deserved and the packet of vicks sweet for my throat. Honestly.. I guess its because he knew he was scamming me and was afraid I might ask the others to call the police thats why he didn't run after me.

After that the faci and incharge came to look for me. While talking to there, my eyes were starting to water. All they do is ask me to stay and tell me there are things to learn when i told them the concern is about safety. Obviously, they didn't care about that isn't it?

So when mom called I was crying (after they left like 1min ago) and she asked for the faci number and scolded him off when he gave a stupid example of him working in hongkong and taiwan. Like wth? Hongkong and taiwan I also happy. Their language is so common in singapore so how could you take a comparison?

It is always this kind of time when I realise my mom really loves me from the bottom of her heart. She told the faci that no matter how much it cost (including compensation), she wants me back in singapore ASAP. Afterwhich several calls came from singapore,<insert school name> to persuade me to stay and tell me that now they are offering me the option to stay and transfer or come back to singapore. I chose the latter.

If the school don't even blardy care about my safety in the first place, give me a reason to care about their blardy reputation. Why do you care only after I am adamant to come back and not when I offered everyone a chance by staying (and not going with Z on thursday) and by having these talks that were futile? Well, i think its the reputation thing again, isn't it?

Anyway, on saturday I tried to get the ticket home but the agency were closed! Sunday is their national day but they are all closed in the morning.. So I got to change the date of my valid ticket and luckily, it was open. Then we had some shoppings and went to this water puppet show which is quite nice (but not really appealing to me because of the tong tong chng music) and I followed the malays back to the hotel after dinner because i was carrying three bags of things and I'm so tired from all the walkings!

But heng I never go. Because on that night, S got her stuffs pickpocketed. Like everything. Worth 1000++ of stuffs or even more. At least her handphone, 2 sim cards, our hotel money(USD $120 which i passed to her in the morning) and her own USD$400+ went missing.

So that night R, J and me stayed up all night to calculate the money and see how much they will need to have in order to stay alive for like another 2 weeks over there. I left behind some USD and some vietnam dongs so that they can use it if the need arises instead of surviving solely on maggie mee and 80cents noodles.

I flew back on my own on sunday morning. Surprisingly, I had no problem at the Vietnam customs but had a serious problem knowing where to get my baggage and where to get out from at the singapore airport. I am such a directionless person la! The people who i asked thought i came to singapore like. after a long long time and asked me where I'm from. They had this look 0.0 on them when i say "oh, actually.. I'm a singaporean."

=.=

Ok, im speechless too. lol.

Anyway, I've just received an email from school asking me to meet them on wednesday to talk about the compensation and how they can ASSIST me on this report that the <insert school name> management has demanded. They say they will assist me in a fucking report but not on my safety issues? They must really have some brain cells to be thinking of that huh?

Anyway I might be going with my brother since he wants to know why the school is so fucking irresponsible about everything right from the start. I, on the other hand have more interest about the terms and conditions involved. I hope they state that line that said "cautions are taken to protect and keep our student safe from any potential harm" because for obvious reasons..

They didn't fucking hell cared about my safety. I'm still so pissed off and I'm supposed to pay them back the compensation when they should be paying me for their bad arrangement and everything.

 

OUT!

Charps.