I got to know so many things about my classmates today! It's like everybody are warming up already.. YAY!!! No more myself bored again! (what kind of english is that?)

Anyway, today during lesson my teammates were being so funny la! Rif got his chin on the mousepad and using it by moving his chin around the mousepad. I played with him and then everyone of us nudge the other teammate who looked at us and said..

"Are the two of you too bored?!" and still ended up playing with us, with his chin on the mousepad too!

WAKAKA. Then nearing class end, GH came over to my table with his laptop and showed me this 02 mania game, which I'm so in love with, though I really couldn't handle the game just yet, being too stewpit and everything =) Then CL, JY, CS and the guys crowded around the table, checking out my music files, his game files and everything. Started talking about music and realized that there are really freakos who existed. HAHAHA

One of them almost forgotten to bring his laptop home! =D

Rushed to the general meeting with the girls and ended up being sabo-ed as the leader... AGAIN. Had a hard time gathering ideas as the people were still feeling weird with each other, though I must say we fared way better than the other 3 groupings out there.

People, GO GO GO!

Would be attending a concert in school after class and meeting tomorrow, probably would reach home real late like 11pm and then gotta wake up early for saturday again.

I'm so looking forward to sunday morning. A morning with the brat gone overseas and mom, outside! =)))

My polylife is busy.. =(

Happy because I played arcade with the 2 pigs today.

Happy because we went to a movie.

Happy because I got myself a album finally!

Unhappy because I felt unappreciated by people from the ..club.

I'm helping people, not getting recongnition is ok but I get the blames? Now that's not too funny.

Yeah, thats about it. And guess what! I've got my first 'article' published on the school web.

I'm so easily content.. hahahahahahahahahhhah =D

With my heart filled with reluctance, I went to school today with Hui Lin..

Why is it that their class are filled with much more dynamic people and sociable, for that matters..

My class are filled like so-dead-i-have-nothing-to-say kind of people. I don't know if they're too serious with work or whatsoever, but it just doesn't seems right.

Went to class today and things got a little better. Really, I thought it was a little better.. so I'm kinda looking forward to the next and every lessons.

But my buddy o' buddy is not getting to school tomorrow and I'm feeling so tired from the whole month plus of insufficient sleep.

So I thought, hmm, maybe I could take this opportunity to stay home and sleep in one day.

BUT, since I've promised the other 2 to get to school, then I'd be honouring my promises.

Maybe I'll sleep in class tomorrow. -.-" Though I'm not feeling that close to my classmates yet, except for 2 of the new guys who are really crappy and some of the girls whom I knew previously from my club or ex-class.

AND EYYYEERRR, my lecturer for tomorrow looks like some foggy-4-eyed creature but I hope his character is good, his judgement is fair and his comments are constructive.

Well, I'm really getting some sleep soon...

Just spoke to black hole online.

Asked her if I've changed..

I thought I'm becoming more useless, weaker in dealing with issues because I've turned softer.

Work efficiency goes down..

She told me..

"Your temper is much better than in sec school. You also grown to be more matured despite your problems at home.."

Thanks man, I don't think she knew that a few words could help so much. But, I am still determined to get my "be serious at work" motto and attitude back.

About Watches

The other day I was in town with black hole and she was telling me this.

"Charps, why are you always looking at the watches?"
"Did I?"
"YEAH! And you're like 'analysing' each and every watch. BUT YOU NEVER BUY ONE."
"Eh, those watches are so ex la! And I haven't found one that captured my heart yet." *made stewpit sound*
"Ha. Ha. Ha."

...

I have many watches at home. Some were from mom, mainly sport watches and mainly those clockwatches I've got myself not for time purposes but for collection. I also have this watch from Von, but I don't think it suits me very well.

Reason being, a watch can be a watch if it is treated by you like ONLY A WATCH.

For me, a watch would need to suit the one who's wearing it or it's just another useless metal on your body.

The watch interface; its design; its wrist strap diameter; is it chrono or digital and even the colors, make a big big difference!

For me I don't like watches with large wrist strap. Not only does it restrict my freedom but also it looks awkward!

A round interface would look kinda weird on me too, whereas a square/rectangular one would normally make me look like a guy. So, must pick carefully!

Color wise, I would try to pick less of blue/black/red colors which would be too bold and go for normal color like silver sometimes. Now that if I could pick, I would choose green interface with shimmer or purple in shimmer. WeetZ! So cool la.

Don't ask me if they suits me yet. I haven't tried them on my wrist yet! So yeah, that's all the knowledge I have for watches. I think it's really limited.

HA. HA. HA.

Yesterday and today are 2 verrry hectic schedule for me.

So I was supposed to rush to a meeting after class for today's programme and then to the rehearsal and then to another meeting for a event.

But then my lecturer was late. No she was verrryy late. Like for an hour.

So everyone in the room was cold and trembling and there ain't anyone making any noise in the room, unlike in my previous class!

Wah lao, first time I miss them so much. First time I appreciates the politics in class and first time I appreciate being called lame!

When I was finally done with class, I ran straight for the rehearsal skipping 2 meetings because I was very late. I got into the threatre and guess who I saw?! THAT ZHI WEI LA!!

Ok, so I didn't really see him. When I was going rows after rows looking for my seat(I'm very de directionless), he called me up and said that HE SAW ME.

HE WAS SHOCKED TO SEE ME IN THE AWARD CEREMONY REHEARSAL.

So qian bian that guy!

And then I asked where he was while continuing my search for my seat and he kept repeating "in front in front look in front" while everytime i look in front i can see nothing. When I reached my seat he gave up and called me.

WAKAKAK. We were like 1 row between us only la. So funny.

Then board the bus to SK with him because he needed to get his phone cover and I needed to get my pant for today. Had a great time chatting with him on the bus because we talked about recessive genes.

ZHIWEI, you have recesssiveee genees! =D

Heh.

When I reached home I bathe and slept from 8 till 3.30am. CL was online!

Weets! So I chatted with my new classmate who is so 'funny' 'cute' and eh 'babyish' because he's the YOUNGEST in the class! That guy keep hinting we old already! =(

And then I remembered.

OH NO

OH FUCK

OHHHHH GOSHH!

I FORGOTTEN TO DO MY JOURNAL WORK!

Then I had to send an email to my lecturer explaining the reasons and rushing out the journal.



I went for the ceremony and was sms-ing with zhiwei or eryc throughout the whole thing la. After that skipped the reception and went for the kiddie programme to look at the cute kidmos!

SEAN WAS SO CUTE!!! He shaved his hair and looked almost like bald except that he has this bunch of hair at the front. LOL!

Had fun with the peeps at the pizzahut after that.. weetz, I was treated again! =Xx

Went for a walk around the mall and saw the SI promotion thingy being held there. The 2 finalists were signing their names on posters and whatsoever. When Jonathan Leong hugs a lady, Casey went crazy. And I was going like "Jump down from here and you sure can have a taste of how's it like!" LOL =x

Went home alone like any other Saturdays. I SLEPT IN THE BUS AGAIN! But this time I overslept. It was until the bus drove into the parking lane of the interchange did I woke up. The bus driver was shocked to see me and was like

"eh, ain't you the girl who wanted to alight at the bus stop?"
"eh yeah."
"what are you doing here?"
"eh I overslept."
"ORHHHHHH!!!! You machiam scared me! Thought who talk to me.. Anyway you can walk from here. Be careful of the buses"

And I walked a long way to the bus interchange with a hurting foot.

Anyway my foot is still hurting from the stewpit shoe..

Shall blog again when I'm free. =D

Irritating buggers.. irresponsible buggers..

Ok, just venting my frustration. =)

I'm angry with the inefficiency of the people around who are holding jobs they are not capable of. I'm frustrated with the trends and fully aware of the consequences of what they've done would cause to the whole project.

Today I spent my day in a less hectic pace than the ones I've had recently, going to the mall after school to shop leisurely and have dinner with my buddy.

And yeah, I was there to take a look at the pant for Saturday's event.

...

So everything I'm doing recently has been linked to several big ideas. projects committments projects committments.

I could hardly heave a sigh of relieve finally when the head of another department approaches me to do up a proposal for her by saturday.

Freak.

So I told her I am going to be real buzzed from tomorrow onwards till the whole of saturday and she insisted I do it. I wanna smack her in the face, get her to look into the mirror and say

"Look at that, it's your job and it's hardly half of my current workload. So stop complaining about it when I've helped you with your task when I have my own business to mind and yes, start crackin!"

She then suggested for me to pass the job down to a friend who's in the same department as me. Apparently my friend would be at home resting her bad throat tomorrow so I'm supposed to pass the work to her, like depriving her of the chance to even rest properly.

Anyhow, by hook or by crook I WON'T be able to complete the proposal by saturday to even to get started on it so I've discussed with my friend and she has been a very nice girl, agree to help me out with the proposal and everything.

But I'm feeling damn guilty. Passing her the workload that doesn't belongs to her and depriving her the chance to even rest well at home when she's sick. I know the sickening feeling when you're suffering from the symptoms and the last thing you wanna do is really to get extra workload done for some incompetent leaders.

Really, so what if you've got an appointment on sat morning? What about your friday night and saturday afternoon and evening?

If you cannot live up to the job expectation, don't try for it and waste everybody's time.

That's firmly what I believed in and in the next meeting, I am so gonna get her to get people into her department and stop exploiting my teammates in my team.

Or me, for that matter.

Today went to Hotel Mirama for jap buffet with the peeps..

Must say the buffet was great, we had at least 32 ebi tempuras on our table! 32! Excluding the other tempuras + sashimi + soup + noodle + steamed dishes!!

We ate till we almost fell over la!


And the 3 girls.. they are big sicko perverts!!! *grumbles*

And yes, I've enjoyed very much today..

Usually I'll talk more about my unhappiness.

I thought I was supposed to meet this friend of mine who we always get to school together for tomorrow..

end up I heard from another friend that she's meeting someone else for school.

and that someone else is the irritating possessive friend I've talked before.

Yesterday while online, we talked about this friend and I decided.

I really don't like her. =(

But I won't smack her or anything. If before this I'm ignoring her, I'm just gonna ignore all the more. Haha! =D

One day Charps woke up and found everything bad for her.

She got thru the day..

And went to sleep thinking everything in the world is beautiful.



....


Maybe everybody too. =)

Quizzes

You Are Likely an Only Child

At your darkest moments, you feel frustrated. At work and school, you do best when you're organizing. When you love someone, you tend to worry about them. In friendship, you are emotional and sympathetic. Your ideal careers are: radio announcer, finance, teaching, ministry, and management. You will leave your mark on the world with organizational leadership, maybe as the author of self-help books.

The Birth Order Predictor

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people. You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together. Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly. People crave your praise and complements.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

You Are From Jupiter

You are exuberantly curious - and you love to explore newness. Enthusiastic and optimistic, you get a kick out of stimulating intellectual discussions. Foreign cultures and languages fascinate you. You love the outdoors, animals, and freedom. Chances are you tend to exaggerate, so try to keep a lid on that. If you do, you'll continue to be known for your confidence, generosity, and sense of justice.

What Planet Are You From?

You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle. Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it. You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

What Time Of Day Are You?

Your Learning Style: Expressive and Tenacious

You love to learn about new cultures, ideas, and theories. You Should Study: Anthropology Counseling Education Ethnic Studies Foreign Languages and Literature History Literature Music Philosophy Eastern Religion

What Should You Study?

You've Changed 48% in 10 Years

You've done a good job changing with the times, but deep down, you're still the same person. You're clothes, job, and friends may have changed some - but it hasn't changed you.

How Much Have You Changed in 10 Years?

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone. Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people. Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run. No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way. You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle. Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings. A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning. You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Your Chances of Being a Multimillionaire: 84%

It's almost certain you'll be a multimillionaire. Just keep doing what you're doing. You are good with money, a creative thinker, and an ethical person. You might be the next Donald Trump!

Will You Be a Multimillionaire?

WAKAKAKAKA I'm really looking forward to that.. being a multimillionaire. XD

*update

I think I have this kind face. Very very kind/used/generous/stupid face. Today, everyone came to me to ask me for help/work and everything.

Make me very dulan.

My project teammates discussed everything on their own and rejected meeting at somewhere convenient for them and then didnt tell me anything at all till I prompt. Fuck.. now I can't go out with my tuition peeps! It's like half year since I met them!

NVM.

One of my friend asked me for a loan of $70. If I have this money I would have *engine sound* fly to buy my clothes for my award ceremony on this coming saturday. Guess what? The money is for another purpose that I really would reject for giving a loan.

That she need the money urgently to pay for a friend who is urgently in need of the money for buying clothes that kind of thing.

Wah lao, seriously la, these kind of things if no money = don buy. Why get yourself in debt?

At my best, I could only offer her a loan of $20. I now left $30 for my clothes and I just gotta starve myself these few days for some extra cash.

I haven't got my pay because my boss went oversea!!! =.=

Then everyone is clicking on Charps online to ask her the following questions

1. is the proposal done?
2. can you update me on the progress
3. can you contact this person
4. can you get your team members to get the things out
5. can you call up the organisations (100+ of them. freak no.!) by tuesday?
6. can you give me a loan
7. can you help me do this..

Sometimes I think it really pays to be a bad guy. When I was Miss Justice Bao, no one asked me to do ANYTHING. Except things in my scope of responsibilities of course. They do their work nicely, get it done before I ask for it and then guai guai follow everything making things go smoothly.

WOW! I should really revert to that. C'on Charps, Time to chill out and leave the work for the arseholes who hasn't been doing much!

donlikedonlikedonlikedonlikedonlike.

donlikenotbeingnotifiedofthingsyoupplhavecomeupwithduringyourOWNdiscussion.

thisissupposedtobeadepartmentthing,ateamkindofthing.

imangrybecauseofaccommodationihavetogiveupanotherchancetomeetupoldfriendsandgivingthemduerespectbycancellingappointmentsagain.

allbecauseimangrythisteamthingisgoingtobeofmuchmoreimportancethanaoutingoutside,becauseitissupposedtobesomethinglike'work'andihavetoberesponsible.

feltsopuppet.

Was out with the peeps from the bball club just now.

Went for a lil of bball, had a great time running around working my heart and body, sweating it out and ogling at bimbo's lil brother, who is very handsome and cranky and smart for a 5 year old kid!

Then had dinner with poke and black hole and realized that they can eat alot. I mean.. ALOT. Like at least twice of my dinner.

I'm not on diet on anything. But what they've eaten might even be three times what Addie ate for her lunch in school! =DDD

After that we went on to the park and lied on the rocks for some time. It was cooling and quiet and everything till we started talking about stupid things.. hahahahah

They drank a lil alcohol, which I didn't touched one bit!

I drank plain water =D

Poor von had herself and her bro lost when she came over to take the vcds from me just now and eneded up walking 2 bus stops.. which is so funny. =P

Eyeerrr!

Eyeeer!

Have you met consumers who have only themselves to blame when they took advantages of seasonal promotions without taking into consideration of all the things that they'd have to pay because they would have 'earned' a short-term gain for themselves and a whole mountain of bills for the next 2 years?

Well, I have.

These consumers would exclaim to you how smart they are, being smart enough to take advantage of the promotions and then turn around and complain about the high bills they have been paying as part of the terms and conditions. Complain about how things didnt work out as they meant it to be and how your company has been ripping them off.

I laugh, whenever I meet these kind of people.

I was msn-ing with a friend who's such a consumer. It was like one thing I would not expected him to do for he seems smart enough to know the calculations involved. Turn out he's still a typical singaporean, as part of the more ignorant population.

He had wanted to get a service from our company and since his account had got a deficit, he'd have to clear it before anything can be done. It's part of the company policy and everyone knows it's your responsibility to be returning things if you haven't, owe up if its your debt.

He has the cheek to turn around and say my company is making big bucks, sucking the hell out of them every month.

I was going like "huh? how come?"

And he said "We pay so much every month and I think it's not worth it because of (list of things he said)"

"But you didn't took up the service because you wanted to. You took it because you wanted the promotion. Am I correct?"

And he went mute.

He later went on and said "ya lo bo bian keep quiet lo..when it is over i'll speak like a big boss again."

Really. Goddamnit. Shamelesssssss la!

Wanna give him a smack sia.

But I just laugh it off. If he's that stupid uncle who drown my colleague in saliva, I would have done the same to him. For every sentence of critism that he voiced, I would return it with a series of why questions and at the end of it, point to the stupid person that he's the one who made himself all so miserable, so stop being a wimp-ass trying to push the blame on anyone else.

I may be a sales person, but at the same time I do not con you. I notify you of all the legal things that you have to take note and you make your own decisions if you wanna get these short term gains for a long period of bills to pay or you can save up slowly and get the thing you want later on without getting yourself stuck in some contract and stuffs.

So stop being such a smart alec and wimp-ass can anot?!

Makes me think of those middle-aged uncles and aunties who can't stop blaming on others for their plots when

1. They make themselves out to be so
2. They didnt make plans
3. Wasted their time on useless trivial stuffs then on rectifying any problems they faced.

It's like the brat at home saying he has no $$ but he still can afford to go for beers and cigarettes.. all the vices, while my mom can say she's broke when she can go for facial treatments that cost a few hundreds.

It's difficult for me to understand what's going through their brain and mind when time should be spend on finding solutions and not on blaming who's fault and who's responsible.

Then sometimes I'll get really negative and would have this popping up in my head.

"Idiots and just idiots."

and I'll start feeling arrogant and guilty for saying that again.

Tagboard added

I've just added a TAGBOARD!

Yes! It's a TAG BOARD ppl!

Now not only can I chat with ppl on msn, on forums and everywhere else, there's still a TAG BOARD!

C'on! Post a message! =)

The Sesame Street Test

You Are Elmo

Sweet and innocent, you expect everyone to adore you. And they usually do! You are usually feeling: Talkative. You've got tons of stories to tell. And when you aren't talking, you're laughing. You are famous for: Being popular, though no one knows why. Middle aged women especially like you. How you life your life: With an open heart. "Elmo loves you!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

Sometimes I loathe watching shows with hints of revengence in it.

You know, when you see the guy turning from a happy man into someone shouting curses; blaming everyone and swearing for revenge, it's like a bad thing.

And I will tend to relate it to myself and bring back stupid things I don't wanna remember, because right now I'm feeling kinda happy with little wonderful things around me.

Like the programme in school tomorrow. Omg, the kids! =D

And I've been busy with projects in school so I hadn't got good night sleep recently; neglecting my pals online and offline..

I'm so sorry for that. =(

But!!! My project is coming to an end and I believe I am involved in another one soon. Let's hope I will not be involve in some busy department again.. =))))

Some of you might ask, why would you want to take up these projects?

But the fact remains that I would like to get exposed to new people; new ideas and new leadership style..

Under the leader of this current project, I felt like everything is controlled and that the sentence of "the decisions lies in you" are just words. Nothing more.

It seems like everything is being controlled and we can't come up with something more creative but more of tested and proven style.

However, it seems like the leader for the next upcoming project are more open to ideas. Worked before with her on a really short term basis and she always asked questions that would set us pondering and really, when she set into the meeting today she made comments which I go "wow" at!

Weets, I'm so looking forward to it! =D

Quizzes

Some quizzes I've quoted from Yi

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships. You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. You have a hard time ending relationships, even if the other person says it's over.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

Your Power Level is: 69%

You're a very powerful person, and you know that all of your power comes from within. Keep on doing what you're doing, and you'll reach your goals.

How Powerful Are You?

You Are 45% Left Brained, 55% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerous People will stop and watch you when you appear Even though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing

What Type of Weather Are You?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is high. You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love. Having your own life is very important for you... Even more important than having a relationship.

The Five Variable Love Test

You Have A Type A- Personality

You are one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you. When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love! You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

You Are 24% Brutally Honest

Honesty is nice, but only when it's convenient. You rather be nice than honest. You figure it's important to be honest about the big stuff, but little lies never hurt anyone!

How Brutally Honest Are You?

The Movie Of Your Life Is An Indie Flick

You do things your own way - and it's made for colorful times. Your life hasn't turned out how anyone expected, thank goodness! Your best movie matches: Clerks, Garden State, Napoleon Dynamite

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

You Belong in 1973

If you scored... 1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in! 1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too. 1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all! 1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day. 1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

Your Luck Quotient: 63%

You have a high luck quotient. More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life. You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that. Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.

How Lucky Are You?

Your True Birth Month Is December

Logical Patriotic Ambitious Not egoistic Loves praise Loves to joke Fun to be with Not pretending Loves attention Short tempered Hates restrictions Loves to socialize Loves to be loved Loyal and generous Impatient and hasty Changing personality Good sense of humor Honest and trustworthy Influential in organizations Takes high pride in oneself Active in games and interactions

What's Your True Birth Month?

Your Candy Heart Says "Get Real"

You're a bit of a cynic when it comes to love. You don't lose your head, and hardly anyone penetrates your heart. Your ideal Valentine's Day date: is all about the person you're seeing (with no mentions of v-day!) Your flirting style: honest and even slightly sarcastic What turns you off: romantic expectations and "greeting card" holidays Why you're hot: you don't just play hard to get - you are hard to get

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

You Are 48% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul. You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

Im racking my brains for the meeting tomorrow.

Like *open lid. take brain out. SQUEEZE.*

squeezing my brain juice that is.

it doesnt help matters that 3 of your other planners are often away and left you alone to look out for new ideas.

and it doesnt really help when you ask for opinions and you get opinions that are worth considering but doesnt fit in really well.. because the giver overlooked the essence of it all. turns around and point finger at you.

really.

i'm in this frustrated mood which i always get when im doing everything on my own or when i cant get it done. like a spoilt brat.

o gawk. i need some ... water.

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I love this song. It's one of the bestest songs around and the drama is awesome as well! =))

1. full name: Charmaine
2. name backwards: eniamrahc
3. were you named after someone: no. it's a french word for orchard.
4. meaning of name: bountiful orchard.. eww.
5. nickname: charm, charps, char, charcoal, char kuay teow, char-si-lang and lots more..
6. screen name: confidential! XD
7. D.O.B: 17 july
8. place of birth: some place on the universe.
9. nationality: Singaporean
10. current location: In my living room
11. star sign: Cancer
12. religion: freethinker
13. height: 160-162cm (I think I've grown taller.) XD
14. weight: that's something very sensitive..
15. shoe size: USA 6.5 UK 5(I think)
16. hair colour: dark brown
17. eye colour: brown (u gotta look at it closely like every morning i did)
18. who do you look like: no one in the family!
19. innie or outtie: innie
20. leftie or rightie: Rightie
21. gay, straight, bi or others: straight!
22. best friends: I'll count but i'll not say who. 3 of them.
23. best friend you trust most: 3 of them. thats why they're my best friends!
24. favourite pals: lalal, the crap-pable people.
25. best friend of opposite sex: eh, there's a few.
26. best buddies: ...
27. boyfriend or girlfriend: none =(
28. crush: yea, i crashed onto the pillar once..
29. parents: why?
30. worst enemy: the one in sec school..
31. favourite online guy: Eryc!
32. favourite online girl: yi and addie
33. craziest friend: err. i think those around me are nutcases..so yea.
34. advice friend: hmm...
35. loudest friend: bimbo. haha XD
36. person you cry with: i don cry in front of ppl. haha.
37. any sisters: nope
38. any brothers: 1 elder
39. any pets: right now none. used to have hammies, rabbits, tortoise, fishes, canary(a bird my father and i rescued in school)
40. any disease: STM
41. pagers: in the past.
42. personal phone line: nil
43. cell phone: O2. I just topped up $68 =)
45. pool or hot tub: pool!
46. a car: if i have the bucks
47. your personality: emotional, sensitive and crappy.
48. driving: until i have the bucks to get myself a car.
49. room: errrrr...
50. whats missing: my life? feeling so no life. haha
51. school: XDDD
52. bed colour: currently green. hoping to change to something else.
53. relationship with parents: Dad - negative. Mom - neutral
54. believe in yourself: sometimes i get very let down by myself.
55. believe in love at first sight: yea. why not?
56. good listener: maybe?
57. get along well with parents: neutral -_-
58. save email conversations: yeah
59. pray: very very seldom.
60. believe in reincarnation: yeah
61. make fun of people: my favorite past-time. my friends knew it! XD
62. like to talk on the phone: not really.
63. want to get married: err yea, with a big garden, great hubby, great kids.
64. like to drive: can someone chaffeur me around? ok just kiddin'!
65. motion sickness: sea-sick more often.
66. eat stem of broccoli: yeah! i love veggie!
67. eat chicken with fork: yeah!
68. dream in colour: yes.
69. type with your fingers on home role: i type it as i feel like it.
70. sleep with stuff animals: eh 3 doggies. i haven named them yet though after so long. all were gifts.
71. next to you: my tv.
72. on the walls of your room: paint and dust haha
.73. on your mousepad: MOUSE.
74. dream car: used to love jeeps. now still do though it's not feasible in singapore.
75. dream date: i don know.
76. dream honeymoon spot: i don know.
77. dream husband or wife: i don know.
78. bedtime: no fixed bed time.
79. under your bed: 3 clocks. doesnt seems to work well though. =X
80. single most important question: this is long huh?
81. bad time of a day: when ppl kick up a fuss over something really trivial.
82. your worst fear: heights!
83. the weather is: hot now.
84. time: 12.10pm
85. date: 12/09/88
86. best trick did on someone: cant rmb. i've been evil for long!
87. theme song: there's manyy..
88. hardest thing about growing up: responsibilities and burdens.
89. funniest experience: everytime i laugh, its the funnniest experience then.
90. scariest experience: the canopy walk earlier this year. i almost cried out then.
91. silliest thing you have ever said: cant remember.
92. scariest thing while you are with your friends: when they discussed about topics..
93. worst feeling: oh. PMS feeling. you feel like you're alone and everything. it's horrrible!
94. best feeling in the world: when i cant stop smiling from how the adorable kids are behaving. XD

hooked on msn!

You know you are addictively hooked onto the people online when you log on one day and realize

"Heck, MSN IS ON STRIKE!"

"Oh my gawk! I haven't been able to log into the messenger since early this morning.."

"What do they mean when they say I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH MY CONNECTION?!" (kekeke, when i can blog online @ blogger.com?)

I'm depressed from MSN depriving my needs to talk/chat/crap online!

BTW, I'm getting to Pulau Tekong tomorrow with the people at school. It's an 'excursion' to know more about army life actually.

And I heard it's compulsory to have a boat ride..

Oh no.

The break-up

Met up with an buddy just now to catch "The break-up".

Initially we agreed on "The Barnyard" but as it is, influenced by weird reviews all around..

We decided to catch the break up instead. Just so everyone could well, be accommodated. Heh.

It didn't turn out well, the video showed before the movie starts was great! but the movie turns out to be really crappy.

I'm waiting for someone to catch the barnyard with me anytime soon.. or else I just gotta catch it on vcd then.

Till then.

Today I had A series of unfortunate events.

My body clock was wrecked recently and I had to rely on dear old mom for the frequent annoyin' calls she made in the morning to get up. However, today she forgotten to wake me up despite my umpteen reminders the night before.

Hence, I screwed my day up by being late. =)

Then had a great time with the kids. Sean hugged me today! He wanted to hug me I think, but I was too tall for him so he hugged my leg instead and said "I want Jie Jie" while doing so. Then the sis came over(1 year older than Sean) and said "I also want Jie Jie" =)))

Afterwhich I teased Sean and said "Hey, where's the sweet you told me you wanna give to your mother?" and then that little imp act like he had no sweet on him and his mom looked at us weirdly. So I told her and she said "Aiya, he bluffed one. He go home eat himself de." and little Sean upon hearing it immediately took out both sweets, gave one to his mom and ate one himself.

SO CUTE!

And Afiq. That little shy guy always hiding at a corner. He's so cute and we're all speculating he'd grow up to be a handsome young guy. He drives us crazy with his adorable pout-ing face. Ha!
So we were drawing today and he drew pretty fast. We gave him sweets and got him to borrow a book home, but he wouldn't spend the rest of the 15mins reading on his own or drawing something.

Instead, when asked what would he like to do, he told me "I want to go home" in this soft whispering tone. So I told him "Afiq be good, it's gonna be done soon. See the clock? Once it turns 12 you're gonna be out with your mom and brother!" and then he nods his head and look out at the panels.

So I walked to the panels and asked him "Afiq! Where's your mama?" and he looked around and pointed. The mom saw us and pushed the brother over and the 2 brothers just kept smiling at each other with the glass panel in between them. Afiq started talking(he usually don't talk due to shyness) and kept shouting "Mama! I got storybook!"

When class finally ended, he ran out and beams when he's next to his mama. You should have seen it, it's so cute and heart-warming.

The little brother in the trolley didn't smile when I played with him. But when his mom looked at him, he broke into this sheepish grin that makes everyone laughs.

The mom said she's not sure why both boys are so shy, because it doesn't seems as if she's very shy!!

HAHAHAHAHAH!! I'm so happy I'm in this because every week I'm there, I'll most probably be smiling my way home. =DDD

I swear these kids are so cute, they make me think twice about my future nowadays!

Oh.. and I went to the Singapore Expo today for the Times Warehouse book sale and food expo. Yi and I had alotsa food to eat and I even got myself a book! Didn't manage to catch a glimpse of the accounting book I wanted but at least it isn't a wasted trip.

Here it is, the book I've got myself today!



Just a last note, Lee Hom is damn cool. Hah!

Girls' Survey For Ideal Guy

FOR GIRLS ONLY. ABOUT YOUR IDEAL GUY!

ON = On; OFF = OFF; DM = DOESNT MATTER.

Is taller than you: ON
Is shorter than you: At least equal?
Wears braces: DM
Dresses Ghetto: DM
Dresses Gothic: OFF
Has blue eyes: ON
Has green eyes: Not like cat can liao. DM
Has hazel eyes: ON
Brown eyes: DM
Drinks alcohol: DM. As long as not drunkard.
Wears glasses: DM
Smokes: TOTALLY OFF
Plays sports: ON!
Smiles a lot: ON!
Calls you just to say Hi: DM. Might be more than happy to comply.
Compliments you: ON
Likes to talk: ON
Shy & quiet: DM
Good dancer: DM
Wears jewelry: DM but of course not gold chains.
Smiles when you walk in the room: ON
Has brown hair: ON
Has Black hair: DM
Has blonde hair: ON
Has red hair: ON
Makeup: OFF
Can make you laugh at any given moment: ON
Loyal: ON
Laid back: OFF
Plays guitar: ON
Plays piano: ON
Plays drums: DM
Sing: ON
he's buff (muscles): DM. Not too buffed, can?
Easily jealous: OFF
Doesn't eat meat: DM, I prefer veggies too nowadays.. for eh. health purpose.
is bi: OFF
has a tattoo: OFF
has a lip ring: OFF
has tongue ring: OFF

A super-duper-wonderful woman named meifang-gu once fell in love with the average man called Shi qing. This guy however, fell for the most ordinary lady which later became his wife.

Meifang-gu could not apprehend why and decades later, she asked shi qing.

"Am I not prettier than your wife?"

"You are."

"Am I not comparable to your wife in mannerisms?"

"You are."

"Am I not strong enough in martial arts than of your wife's?"

"You are."

*chuckles*

"Then I must be inferior to her in terms of cooking and sewing."

"No, my wife knows nothing about cooking and sewing, that frying an egg is torturous for her!"

Meifang-gu got angry and asked Shi qing.

"Why did you pick her over me then?!"

"Everything about you is stronger than my wife and even me. As compared to you, I am nothing. Hence I am not compatible and would not suit for you."

Upon hearing this, Meifang-gu let out a shriek and committed suicide.

Ponder over this story.

Meme!

From My Tau Kua - Jia En

1. Respond with something random about you.

you’re a more irritating person than me lorr!! rahhhh…
Do we have a irritat-o-meter for that?! =P


2. Challenge you to try something.

dont cut your hair for 2 years.. never seen you with long hair before. haha..
I'm leaving it long right now what.. you don know your beloved tau kua tied up her hair in class to avoid tornadoes now?


3. Pick a colour that I associate with you.

errr…. dark brown??? cos of your skin colour. haha..
Thanks, i'll take it that you're complement my tan lo!!! XD

4. Tell you something I like about you.

you and your nonsense stories about you and ur friends with deities and some faci. hahaha..
wah lao, thats supposed to be something GOOD DE LORRRR!!! *RAWWWKK*

5. Tell you my first/clearest memory about you.

errr… cant rmb lehh.. shud be the irritating person in class. HAHA
That's ehh. cute. =.="


6. Tell you what animal you remind me of.

is kantang counted? ehehehe
Kantang is POTATO!! IT'S A PLANT LA!!!!

7. Askyou something I have always wanted to ask you.

i dun understand why u ask me to marry you leh. haha.. dun see the pun anywhere.. –looks around for punnie-
pun is not an animal, my darlin' *winks*

From the one who admires me - Ah Yi

1. Respond with something random about you.

She’s a guy trapped in a female body =X she LOVE kids! And I find her spiritual… she’s gd at seeing thru people, as in the character blah blah…s
Wah, I'm so proud.. of myself.. XDDDD

2. Challenge you to try something.

kiss a ger and confess to the one u like!
I DARE YOU TRY TO KISS A ZHAO BOR FIRST!! Confession.. I confess I carry a torch for you for a long time le. *Chuckles*

3. Pick a colour that I associate with you.

Orange… you noe u noe…
I just know you take me as your sunshine.. warmth horrrr? XD

4. Tell you something I like about you.

Dependant fren!!! I noe u will be there for me! heh
I also know you'll be there for me to suan eh!! HEH!

5. Tell you my first/clearest memory about you.

During pri _blank_ , I saw u in my class, wearing that PRPS uniform.
During pri_blank_, I saw your hand, your face and your PRPS uniform!

6. Tell you what animal you remind me of.

hamster.. wahaha.. motashi!!!
=DDD

7. Ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.

When will u wear a skirt and go into a relationship sia!!!!!!!!!!!!?!??!?
Eh, this question I think I will reply you next time.. -.-

Another You

Changed the song in the template and yes, it's this song titled "Another You"

The song is like.. nnice.

Duh! Anyway, the lyrics linked below!

Provided By MetroLyrics

I miss my 'sista' so much. Haven't spoke to her for some time, mainly because I'm stupid enough to keep thinking that she's in her adventure camp..

when for the past few weeks she's haven't even gone anywhere!

That's like so grrrrrrAwK!!!!

Heard from my friends that someone from a certain polytechnic committed suicide few days back because he couldn't handle the pressure from studies. He was fine and everything until the day he jumped off, calling up his parents and even asking them to look out of the window.

Jerk, why would you want to upset your parents like this?

On a happier note, I spoke to my long time childhood friend today!!! She's finishing her A levels in few months time and her parent allow her to travel on her own! I wished I could join her, if only I had the finances to go beyond St John's island. Duh!

I need some motivation

'Cause I can breathe again, dream again
I'll be on the road again
Like
we used to be the other day
Now I feel free again, so innocent
'Cause
someone makes me whole again
For sure... I'll find another you

I'm so in love with this song right now..

Had bbq at Marina South with the peeps and they claimed I'm drunk from drinking 1 can of beer. I think I only experienced some 'symptoms' from it but I'm kinda okay now. =)

I doubt I'm normal.

I doubt I'm conscious.

My brain and mind just couldn't co-ordinate and yes, I don't know what I really wants.

Getting out with Yi on Monday and let's hope my troubles would end there and then.

I'm starting my quest tomorrow. To get my goals attained and myself up and going again.

Wish me luck.

No More Reputation

Yesterday and today was bad.. real bad.

I tarnished my own reputation.

Around 6am after my mom left for work, I smelled cigarettes. Needless to say, it must be my brother. Never one to be nice to him about this issue(The family has a smoking policy after we know he's a smoker) and the only thing we asked from him is not to smoke at home.

Reason 1, his sister has asthma and secondly her sister and mother don't wanna get lung cancer from being second hand smoker.

So imagine my dulan-ness when I woke up because of the stewpit smell and I think I went hysterical. I went screaming and shrieking asking my brother to stop smoking at home.

Sometimes, I really attributes my such movement to my father. He used to smoke at home and then after he left I can't really accept anything close to him anymore. Even my brother and mother. It's like a very big repulsion to me right now.

Anyway, I think my brother brought some female friend home and it's ... embarassing.

This morning I woke up with a call from some private number. Thinking it's my mother bugging me about trivial matters again and still dulan from the smoking(i think) i woke up and has this "man" voice of "HELLO", Turn out its one of the guy from my club who spoke to me lst night. He got a shock I think.. and I got such a bad day.. half a day. Tarnishing all the reputation I have.

Kao EH!!!! *Cries*

Bliss Feeling

Having this sudden bliss feeling over me.

Don't ask me, I'm probably suffering from some mental disorder. =D

I'm better. From the sudden wave of anguish that went over me last night.

I'm cheered up from everything that happened today and would gladly stays so if only my mind would not keep thinking that I'm lacking of something.

What do you call it, transquility?

Not sure. *tired smile*

Had wanted to take time off for Thursday for myself since it's the only day I'm not 'booked' or have anything to do. Turn out that I need to get back to the school to get interviewed for a Bursary award. Hope I get it though, it's really gonna be a bonus from all the things that's been bugging me.

Work. School. Work. School.

My life is a routine. It's busy but it's not busy in the way I would deprive pleasures from. I think somehow if I am to deprive pleasures from being busy, it would be keeping my toilet clean; cleaning up a home in the bright daylight and such relaxing activities. Definitely not meetings and plannings to be done before due date and having to deal with stewpit people..

Working life evolves around the same people; same idiotic attitudes; same responsibilities.

There ain't even a tinge of excitement in me right now. Rawwwkkkkkk!

Thankfully, the week has passed by pretty fast. Hope next week's would be gone quickly and I'd finally have time to laze around at home..

Till then, may my soul be blessed.

PMS mode.

I'm pretty much in a self-hate mode right now.

So many things I'm hating bout myself. Felt so worthless and my friend have to PMS on me, making me all the piss off than ever but being a miss nice, i actually tolerated it. Instead of exploding it into her face and screaming all the things I wanna say.

And then I'll look at myself in the mirror and think.

"How useless can you be?"

So I'm kinda in a 'PMS' mode now, even though I'm not.. at least biologically.

Sometimes I keep thinking if only I could relax myself and explode it, be more straight forward then I wouldn't feel so bad from all the burdens inside. But if I explode, I'd feel guilty for the hurt and sadness I caused anyway.

So it's better that I tolerate it right?

I hate to admit it but I'm kinda soft on people I loved. Friends and family.

Unless they're like that pervert simon. Then you know what happens.


Heard from Iris that the peeps are looking for me. For an outing; a game; a meal. But I'm always nowhere to be seen, not because I don't know but because I'm in sucha anti-social mood. My secondary classmates too. Called me out for game/celebration and I rather faced the four walls myself. Poly mates too. Everyone too.

I'm feeling so stressed, for the loss of relaxation. Alone.

Actually I would be cheered up if someone would accompany me to fly a kite; get a meal at pitstop; a trip to St John's Island and maybe.. a game of pool.

But it seems like everyone's busy too. Or ain't interested.

Sigh.