my primary 6 class photo

we're oldies i tell ya.. nas posted his secondary gangster picture on his blog, while cs posted his kiddie pictures on his blog too! so not wanting to lose out, im holding mine too. :D

i don't think i changed much in terms of physical, except that maybe im taller a little so i don't look that fat or bak bak as before. (spot me! im in second row :D)

That year was the most memorable and happiest for me. with good buddies like ying, xuan, flavia, cai yun, joan, abigail, cindy and pervert chen. we may not be the best class, but who cares?! the relationships in this particular class was a lil like w14g because we have got people liking each other and the like. except that some were obvious, some were not. hiakhiakhiak.

i just wished i had taken more pictures then.. and really didnt go on that exchange trip alone. :(




from the camera-shy,
Charps!

i would/am/have/wish..

kob-ed this meme from chun sang's blog. it's not illegal to kob meme anyway.. :D

 

i would...
1. never eat human flesh ever.
2. never never say die.
3. love to visit greece, venice, vienna before my time is up.
4. want to be a vet, if only im not afraid of blood. :(
5.start doing things i've never done before.
i am...
1. loyal to my job/friends?
2. forgiving. really! :)
3. rash & impulsive at times.
4. too sensitive
5. too stupid for my own good. :D
i have...
1. no life.
2. alot of time for books.
3. friends in different clinques, leading different lives.
4. wasted too much time on stupid people who only cares for themselves.
5. stupidity and innocence in my blood.
i wish...
1. i had made things come true.
2. i didnt binge myself when im younger..
3. for a healthier lifestyle.
4. for more courage, bravery and determination
5. im more practical. :D

Badminton + Soccer Day!

Hello people!

I'm back! Played badminton with Nas, C.S, Yun and Nas's soccer friend, Ravin before we proceed to soccer with Sharime & kkw!

The badminton ahh.. never in my life have I played it this way before. The point system is so !$!@#@$@#%#^!!!! Imagine..

1 point - normal.

5 points - for hitting on legs, arms or body.

10 points - for head strike.

20 points - for hitting private parts!!!!

heng I never tio for private parts. But think I tio for head or body one.. C.S and Yun so poor thing. hiakhiakhiak! All thanks to Nasri for coming up with such a point system!

Then we proceed to the court to wait for Nas & Sharime to borrow the soccer ball. While waiting, I was getting really.. mouth-itchy. Not that hungry but you just wanna have something to bite on. Then C.S was hungry too, so we bought fries to share. While sharing, the other guys like Nas kept going "join the game!!" while yun, c.s and I kept going "eating fries!!!" hiakhiakhiak!

but i think the fries really help sia! yesterday made me so possessed that according to Nasri, I scored 9 goals! lol! I only remembered the funny goal with kkw sliding his both legs outwards and the ballie go in between. lol!

Anyway, here are some pictures taken yesterday.

me tugging at nas's new hat.. so cute hor? ;P

nas acting like drunken master! funny look on his face though..

from left: c.s doing a obscene pose, while nas and yun looks very innocent here... :D

 

 

From the very pigu-pain,

Charps! :D

unknown dulan-ness.

no good news today.  am in a very sarcastic kind of mood, say something and i'll bite you if you say a word wrong.

so much that in a super short conversation with my classmate sotong, he asked why am i so fierce.

"fierce meh!?" was my response. now, i think i am sibeh not fierce, just sibeh dulan.

i suddenly quitted the cs game with [W.x.G] peeps just now. without notification or anything. the sounds made my ear pain. i am so dulan, i wish i could bite someone.

my exercise short is missing. i am very sibeh dulan because i can't find it in my bro's wardrobe(cancel possibility #1) & i can't find it in mom's too! (cancel possibility #2) now, im left with the last few options. very, very dulan.

actually, i also don't know why i so dulan. not pms leh. no one made me angry. i just.. don't like to know that certain people is related to certain people and certain people has feelings for certain people and certain people is a loser.

i am super ready for a sibeh dulan round of interrogation + debate from anyone. hope my dulan-ness will go away after a sleep or i think i will be so dulan i .. might be violent. :(

 

why am i always so dulan when certain things reach my ears about certain people.. sigh.

Man also like gossip!

Ok.. most of the time people are saying females are gossipers and loves to chat. but guys too! they worst sia, we drink teh while gossiping, they drink beer while gossiping. their cost of gossiping also higher than us because teh don't make you have big belly! :D

anyway while in school with the cs-peeps the other day, we found out something. something we might have overlooked..

that guys, gossip as much as girls. they also love to rack up history as much as girls the only difference is..

guys LOVE to rack up the good things about them to start a topic.

girls LOVE to rack up the bad things about guys to start a ranting. hiakhiakhiak!  the pyscological mindset of the different genders! :D

 

guy: i used to be a warrior! great warrior! i am muscular and can lift anything up easily!

girl: you used to be a butcher! cruel butcher! you are fat and you think you look cool!

guy: no! its muscular! its cool ok, train up my abs for long time..

girl: and you eat much more than what 3 of me eat for the whole day. 

guy: ....

 

 

From the very cheeky,

Charps! :D

Tua? Bean Bean! :D

met adee for movie no.23 tonight.. thought there's a sneak preview today but ended up there's no sight of no.23!! :( so we caught mr bean in the end.

adee was telling me how her colleague took her son to watch and the son laughed happily while the mom has no sign of response from the movie. heng ah! both of us laughed like crazy :D

mr bean is so funny, but he's aging! :( and there were times when i was able to stifle my laughters and ended up with a few chuckles while i turn to my side and see adeee laughing like she's gonna throw popcorns over people's head (not like we were eating popcorns anyway! :D)

its a nice movie and compared to the others on air, what can be better making a whole cinema of people laugh? :)

on a last note, i think its really easy to work hard. but not that easy to get the damn pay into your pocket. grr!

 

 

from the bean-bean,

Charps! :D

FOOD!

This blog is getting delicious! im so drooling and holding the saliva with a pail wiping my mouth right now when im staring at these delicious cakes from choc-a-bloc! i so want to try the chocolate cheeze and mom's choco fudge cake!

the pricings is ok for me, though it might seems a little steep. i mean, where can you get delicious cakes like this from your usual bakery at $28/800g? the usual bakery charge you $30/kg for something to them so commercial.

cakes and food should be a form of creativity ok! not just change the cherries on the black forest to strawberry or replace the ring in the middle from shredded chocolates to blueberry jam just because it cut cost or save time.

blardy money-making companies.. -.-"

and i miss oyster omelette at changi! fishball noodle at bedok! stingray at bedok! long john silver and tian wai tian's dim sum! o! and subway! i heart subway hiakhiakhiak!

on a totally random note, i don know why people loves to get me sponge cake. cake which is covered in very thin layer of cream but thick rings of sponge within. i totally hate sponge nowadays..

it reminds me of the washing sponge i use everyday. arrrg! :(

from the love-food-but-hate-sponge,

Charps! :D

La Femme Desperado! :D

 

The many setbacks and hurt made me stronger. So afraid I’m not yet mature that it made me look like I’m putting on a strong front.

Even when I tear I claim its sweat all for others to see. I wish for a break but there’s still work tonight. If I’m tired there’s only this empty room and the half icy cold bed.

Used to be so innocent and look forward to love. But the gown doesn’t have much youth left and there's no way to wear it and make it look better.

Love is the biggest hope its inevitable all you get is disappointment. It’s not my wish to be a workaholic or be a person of steel. I used time to exchange for the dowry, but who would care for me and fight the cold for me?

Laughter and smiles I’ve tried dating a few rounds. I got nervous whenever I got loved Just cant believe there’s someone there to love me.

I’m still adamant to find the lead actor in my life

For him I’ll clear the stage and make my palm fiery hot.

Love is the easiest for women to lose hope and disappoint. Dating, break up, hugging and leaving it behind is the sequent Then the process starts and strives harder to exchange for dowry again.

But my heart is no longer calm and as time goes by, I grew accustomed to without a partner.

But when I wake up from a nightmare who can I hug?

Strong people live to of 80 years. No matter how big the garden is all they have is they themselves. Please allow me to put down this strong front and from then on we’ll hug till daybreak

Hugging is also a dream butthe more I chase the more it grew blur.. Till the flower withers. Oh~

From the lyrics of The woman with the past(有过去的女人) by miriam yeung (杨千桦). The song is also the drama song for La Femme Desperado(女人唔易做) which stands for not easy to be a woman! Very nice story with nice cast. like Melissa Ng and Raymond Lam.

 

From the love romance-comedy,

Charps! :D

Bored till my butt hurts!

im just here because im bored. so bored that i actually thought i'd get my friends to get to the school library with me to borrow books.

not that im not a book person, but more of.. i don study for school. im more often seen in the library borrowing fictional books. hiakhiakhiak! school bores me though the prospect of all the people within is exciting. ;D

anyway i've been slacking around for a while now and i still dont have the will/interest to go back. i was thinking, maybe i should make good use of the remaining month and start reading up/watching movie. be a total slacker. money can be the last of priority now. von was right, we value money over interests making us so unhappy sometimes.

so im gonna start chewing on carrots and cabbage and be a little bunny just to save some money. cooking bee hoon is a good idea too, but i thought the renovation after that is not too good an idea.

hmmmm.....!!!!!!!!!! :D

o.. and guess what? i have no TV at home right now!

when they say women are vicious creatures, bear that in mind! mom took out all the cables and everything that would make a tv work and told me i could very well steer clear of the tv set till we moved! she is disgusted and angry at the fact that her 'kinda new' tv are spoiling because of improper handling/shutting down and frequent torment it is subjected to by her friend.

so im encouraged to get mobtv right now actually.. for these few months. hiakhiakhiak! :D

and today, in the morning.. the friend knocked on my door and shouted "ah girl ah girl!" must be asking about the tv, but i was too lazy and not so bothered with her. i went back to sleep. if i woke up, i might be banging that wok on her head! imagine someone who came over everyday and shouted so loud for you to get back going "ah girl ah girl!" omg...

nightmare for a sleepyhead like me! :(

anyway im off to watch more movies, read more books and yes, im writing off now finally.

P.S: it's so difficult to type on the keyboard/phone with long fingers. where is my mysterious nail clipper!?

P.S.S: im not picking up calls for these few days actually (don't ask why..) so it would be most nice of you to just send me a sms, i gurantee you a quick response! :D

 

 

from the bored,

Charps! ;D

Movie Critic - Pathfinder

ok please allow *ahem* movie critic Charmaine or more affectionately called Charps to publish the movie review on one of the latest movie out in the movie threaters.. PATHFINDER.

well i know nothing of the movie in the first place. initially wanted to catch the haunted school, then mr bean and in the end at the recommendation of ham sen ti, mr soh chun zheng, we decided to catch pathfinder instead.

whats a pathfinder? how i know sia! but nevermind since none of us knew exactly what it is so the 5 of us, which includes yun, zheng, nas, von and me went to book the tickets and have dinner together! :D

during the movie, our seating arrangement was this. from left to right. yun, me, von, zheng, nas.

i swear (fingers dabbed with saliva from tongue) that i am so confused when i watched it. storyline wise sucks. it is worst than blood and chocolate which adee couldn't understand. hiakhiakhiak! but the sound & visual effects were nice. i particularly liked the one where the snow rolls (or collapse), the way they roll down like big giants sliding...

ok wait, its called a snow-slide..or a landslide in winter. -.-

yun and i was having conversations like.

yun: "whoa so pretty, if i live there shiok!!"

me: "haha yeah lor. so pretty. but i don understand leh. no story one ar? not about ghost warriors meh?! where is the ghost.. all human leh. and eh. why the warriors so brutal nevermind, still so UGLY!?"

yun: *making her favorite face* -.-"

afterwhich i felt some vibrations on my side and i said to yun

me: "oei, i think sound effect damn good sia! can feel vibration.."

yun: "hahaha"

turns out that the vibrations came from the irritating buggers who kept kicking zheng's chair. nas and von felt it. i thought it was the vibration!

i mean.. where got people kick so got rhymth one!?!?! :D

anyway, the movie sucks because of the storyline. filming does not help storyline to develop but props-wise and visuals are great. shall not elaborate on sound since i eh.. cant distinguish kickings from the sounds effect..

i'd give it a overall of 6/10. that extra 1 point is given because i thought i saw the lead male actor's butt. (covered in so little clothings..)

and the funny thing is when the people die in the movie, you can see them breathing hard. i never knew corpse even breathe! :D

 

From the movie-critic,

Charps! :D

updates

updates about yesterday.

went to school for a meeting ranging around 1.5hr. our meetings never used to be this long, this fruitful and this.. solemn. i missed my kidsread buddies who would joke/suan/crap with me. i don like solemn stuffs though i admit it do gives me a sense of achievement.

and im happy with the changes we're gonna make. sigh. contradictions everywhere!

met yi while im meeting, made a hand signal. hiakhiakhiak! and met the w14g peeps afterwards at our usual meeting place, after i spent quite some time at the it helpdesk for the bad registry, bad connection and what else..

must be too much porn loaded! oh my gawk! :D

on the bus ride home with von, spoke about dreams and courses we're in. i envy her, because she knows where her interest lies and she's not afraid to go for it, while i on the other polar of the system, knows where my strength lies but are afraid to go for it.

the most i did is write up this whole lot of craps online and taking it as literature :D

i am forever a fickle person. on normal days i have my points, i know my views and i would voice it out. but when things gets a lil tricky, i get all muddled up between the yes and no, the right or wrong.

and then i would even lose my sense of direction. haiiyoo!

whatever. fast forward to today. kat just updated me and asked if i wanna get to the slc overnight camp. i said yes without thinking because i had nothing on, hesistated for a second and came up with a no.

and thats because, i saw the line that she wrote.. "for upcoming slc committee or something.." and i immediately said no.

it's just that i know i am very "free-lance" kind of person. i don't like having things tied to me. not responsibilities, not people not even places. so with some responsibilities that i have, its enough. and i don wan people to think that im there for the committeee or anything. because im not interested in the first place. if anyone wanna be leader, they can jolly well do it. i am just gonna it on.

in regards to the hospice project, i think i might find someone to pass to as well. i will not be sticking around the club after school reopens.



OUT! :D

6 weird things about me

ok this is a very simple meme to do.. in your leisure time which i think people like us have loads anyway (blogging and stuffs. haha) and its just to tell of the different weird habits we have in our blood!

name the 6 weird things about you.

1. I never share saliva with anyone directly from the same straw/utensils since im of age 5. i will however, break my boundaries and sometimes compromise by sharing from the same cup/bowl with people i know and treat as.. hygenie. for people who i don't even share from the same cup, you know i find you/your saliva disgusting. :)
2. I almost never fold my clothes. the wardrobe is a priviledge/excess luxury for me. i think i'd be better off keeping clothes in the suitcase. or in a junk bin! i iron my clothes when im wearing them out or chunk them inside the wardrobe without folding them back. i do however, hang them up in the hanger just so my wardrobe lookes nicer.. hiakhiakhiak!
3. i have a fetish for cute babies, toddlers, soft toy dogs! i cringe when i see them and i was mistaken for a pervert many times by my own friends. oh well! i also love clean toilets. i'd never step into a dirty loo or i'd wash it if im in a good mood.
   
4. i love ribena + raisins. the combination made me happy. the food made me happy. i love chocolates too, but only milk chocolate. dark chocolate doesn't appeals to me most of the time though they're really nice to munch on once in a while.
5. i almost never splurge/spend on clothings and cosmetics like the usual girls. or shoes. for that matters! i splurge more on softwares/games/computer stuffs. or books and movies. :D
6. i have 6 clocks at home which doesn't wakes me up and has slowly one by one, fallen to grace with my constant kicking/knocking over of clocks. yes, i think i kick whoever disturbs me/deprives me of my beauty sleep in the nuts especially if i have nothing on for the day.
   

annoyed

i am so gonna blow up any moment! i am so freakin' angry! my ass gonna blow more waste gas than usual!

MY TV IS ON THE VERGE OF A TOTAL BREAKDOWN!

thanks to the bastardy acts of mom's friend who came over for therapy every single day, who switched on my tv.. played around with it and yes on it to maximum. and thanks for waking me up every single day because im very pissed off when i see the tv screen blinks and flickers with a big BOOM! when i finally. yes.. finally switched it on to watch tv.

like once or twice every week!

and to top it off the annoyance of noise and disturbance during my sleep is really getting on me. i think i'll stick a note around just to show that im not happy.

like.

PLEASE TUNE DOWN THE VOLUME BEFORE SWITCHING OFF THE TV - on the tv.

PLEASE DO NOT JUMP ON THE SOFA - on my front door.
and a very courteous reminder of..

PLEASE DO NOT DISTURB THE ONE IN THE ROOM. fuckass!

i am so annoyed!!! :S

blood & chocolate

i met up with rq and adee today for this movie..



blood & chocolate combo anyone?

the movie was better than i thought. it is more realistic than i thought it would be. and the cast were pretty ok. i like the romance between aiden(think that's his name) and vivien. :)

had alot of food for the day, 1 small lays original during the movie, 1 mac milkshake, 1 mee rebus and jap ramen at this restaraunt near my place which plays sleepy jap traditional songs that all of us almost slept to while having the food!

ruiqi's foodset looks pretty good (and yes, the eel tasted good. haha!) while adee and i slurp on tasteless ramen with nice chicky chunks.

crapped alot and nice day out with the girls, except that if sg is more happening.. and we're more awake (adee don stone la!) it'd be better. hiakhiakhiak!

and xj! i love you for the white jacket! hahahaha. to think i thought its a soft toy --- georgie's new wife. :)

P.S: i've just removed the spywares and repaired my registry with some good softwares and now im fixing up my very irritating lappie with anti-virus. hope it works! though my lappie is more responsive now..


From the tired-and-happy,
Charps! :D

class revealed!

today is a funny day.

meeting adee and rq for movie later, but rq seems to be a pig still.. :) then berlinda msn-ed me and got me to check my new class. we were fortunately, same block.. but unfortunately for her, different classes! :(

then i prompt mingmei to check her class and i got a very ...dunno good or bad news. she's same class as me! omg..

i can only foresee months to come, bullied by the evil clans of wen mingmei. why!? but its so fun to be in same class again.. now i cant slack. :)

anyway i promised to be out soon so this post cant get too long! will be back to update about the movie once im done.

blood & chocolate here i come!!!!



from the love-chocolate-&-saddistic,
Charps!

im so gullible

i am so gullible yet cynical at the same time.

gullible for certain reasons, cynical because of the once bitten, twice shy theory. there are people i'd believe times and times again to be proven wrong each time and still throw in the bet to just take a chance, believe and hope expectations comes true.

but it almost never did.

..and even when people link accusations to them, i would clear up the air as if i knew they didn't do it. but deep inside what do i really feel? disappointments, anger or the tearing bits? there are many times i wish to just pick up the phone and talk to you like we always do. the bits of life, all the honesty that comes from voice over at the end of the cable.

i almost forgotten people do change, just as i did! im not sure if my changes were for the better, but im sure things between us did not. maybe my fault, my bad. i threw the things i'd cherish and treasure most away when everything was fine and did it out of ...

..well. unknown reasons. reasons i couldn't even comprehend myself.

i know that bond between us might have been lost. but i thought i could fix it, mend it and just make it as good as before. but my efforts were useless, futile and only until now do i realise it.

im not really sad, angry or nothing. just felt lost, pity and maybe.. regrets.


but if one day i should meet you on the streets again, i know i'll still fumble and stutter and talk like its my first time, just as i used to do when we were younger.


because something starts and ends just as fast as it started, but some things just stays the way it is, for a long long time before it fades off eventually.

avoidance

avoidance

noun
deliberately avoiding; keeping away from or preventing from happening.

thats what im feeling right now.. or should i say. i've been feeling it this way since donkey years ago. im a total quitter and i'd dig a hole in the ground, sneak back into my ninja shell at every opportunity.

i don feel like meeting up friends, neighbours or anyone for that matter. i would even avoid my mom if i could. im thinking in lines along these:

• movies? i'd catch it on youtube.
• dinners? i'll have it with tv.
• shopping? singapore's too small and everywhere's the same!
• work? its a total no-life, i get my pay so not on time and what? i have to take the attitudes and bus fares?
• school? yeah right, i dont even know how's my new classmates gonna be like. and the planning people are suckos.

as you can see, im pretty much a negative person right now despite chewing on small little 3.5g calbury. it's not working, the chocolate way.

whoever says chocolate helps elevate your mood is so wrong to me at this moment. it makes you fat and yes, how elevated would you be when you're heavier on the scale..

and on a total randomized mode, i felt like writing/starting on a story. :)



from the total-wrecked-and-randomized,
Charps!

about the spellings!

people!!

i would like to clarify that i do know dolphin is not spelled with a e as "dolphine"; octopus with a r as "octorpus" and what else. grammar mistakes? on the blog.

its just that as much as i foolproof my writings and essays, i don usually do that with posting on blogs! i'll just click on that publish button once im done, not really caring how i spelled the words even if i knew its wrong. hiak!

some of you have been so irritating, msn-ing me just to tell me i failed my spellings and grammars! oh c'on people!

i just failed terribly in my spellings and grammars in primary school, when they were still teaching phonics and the sing sang sung. i passed it all with flying colors in secondary schooldays. :D

reading is such a virtue! :)

P.S: Nas, no thanks to the wedges i passed you. i cant seems to finish the mac's meal nowadays! :)

from the very-much-in-love-with-books,
Charps!;)

hackers? DIE!

i am lagging like shit nowadays in cs. all thanks to background applications.

anyway, i am not so having a fun time right now with my lappie. sucky spywares and viruses. hackers ought to be shot, spyware/virus pioneers and accomplices ought to be drag out, castrated and dip into chilli padi pool.

i am so vicious. thats what im feeling now. eeyer!

shall now get to bed, only to off the lights and still fidgeting with the laptop.



From the frustratedandvicious,
Charps!

food fair 2007

haloha people! :)

as usual, wayne and basil came over to have their baths today! mom must have know i wanted to get to the food fair so badly (for my xiao long bao. heh!) and so today she woke me up 2 times to ask if we're going.

the first time she woke me up i was throwing a bad tantrum because i think im still mad at her, but she just walked away and woke me up a second time later on to check again if i really dont wanna get there! i was still mad at her and my big ego just don allow me to say "yes mummy, pretty please go with me?" so i just snooze back into my bed thinking how stupid i am, when basil and wayne came into my room and asked if i could bring them there.

of course i say ok, but the grandma said no and its left with mom and me again.. so i.. gave up. i resigned to fate that yes heh. i will go with her and put down my idiotic ego for once. :X

the ride there was pretty long and we ate lotsa food. from taiwan sausages to octorpus ball, dumplings and lots of others food. i even load my bag with 8 packets of clodhoppers! opps! and mom saw me loading them into my bag. hiakhiakhiak!

im sucha sweet-tooth. :)

so today's a pretty fun day indeed, although it could have been made better if xiaolongbao was still around. :(

random question of the day: is xiaolongbao related to xiaolongnu!? :D


from the randomized,
Charps! :D

a lil mystical

its a little mystical
with bits & bits of shed.
it brings about the emotions
and ceases when its rare.

tick-ta-tick-ta.. i don know whats all this about.. the things i've just wrote.

supposed to be out having dinner but i don feel like getting out. not to work not to anything. i've been cooped up home for 5 days straight and omg, is the antisocial me coming back!? shyt shyt shyt.

my throat is getting better today (thanks to mom for helping me get the 1.5litres of h20 home) and weeeeets! im going to support nasri & zheng at tml's match.

shyt, are they from the same team? and kkw also playing. supporting him too.. but wait, he's opponent team leh! what am i supposed to do? i think i'd just cheer whenever they score.. hahaha.

w14g rocks! i am so gonna be jipahorlikeesi tomorrow.. hiakhiakhiak!



from the might-be-antisocial,
Charps!

caned

i just kenna caned after so many donkey years..

mom's friend came over with her 2 grandchildren again and i've been trying to shut the voices up by covering the pillow over me. had wanted to shout.. i mean, c'on! you're in my home and you know im in bed because i slept late and you!!! your grandson run about make noise i can't say anything since kids are supposed to be this way -.- but how can you punish them by asking them to cry non-stop when im supposed to be snoozing!?

then i heard a knock and she asked me about some trivial matters.. like correction liquid and saw Wayne crying on the sofa, Basil beside him looking scared. :(

i think wayne is tired from all the cryings and screaming he has done but she wouldn't let him stop. even used the stick mom used to stop her itch and smack wayne. omfg.

how can you hit a helpless kid?! so i try to shield him and kenna caned as well. i hope i won't have ugly cane marks on me. :(



from the hate-violent-hate-canes,
Charps! :(

peaceout.

Pattern test



Independent Unconventional Unfettered

You demand a free and unattached life for yourself that allows you to determine your own course. You have an artistic bent in your work or leisure activities. Your urge for freedom sometimes causes you to do exactly the opposite of what expected of you.

Your lifestyle is highly individualistic. You would never blindly imitate what is "in"; on the contrary, you seek to live according to your own ideas and convictions, even if this means swimming against the tide.

take it here

What Famous Leader Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

have wanted to blog about how confused i felt.. out of a sudden. like a sudden mood swing when i thought "hey.. i think i wanna do a quiz" and then as suddenly as my moodiness came, it goes away.

i mean, come on! me?! Saddam Huessin!? i hate him for destroying peace.. but i really dont know why he did that or his real motive so i shall not comment any further. hate anyone who destroys peace and strives to encourage chaos and war. even the president or.. anyone. for that matters. :D

lets all strives for peace in the world! im so random! hiakhiakhiak!



from the very-love-peace,
Charps! :)

music & lyrics

a nice evening spent with adee, watching music & lyrics. now, how long have it been since i wanted to watch it? :)

anyway as usual im not too good with movie reviews, or any review for that matter.. but! hugh grant is hot and its kinda sweet, for both the movie and music.

i like one quote from drew berrymore in the movie. it is just so.. correct to me. hiak hiak hiak.

the music has a initial attraction to make you attracted. just like sex. but when you goes deeper and explore it, now, thats the lyrics and when the two combines, thats where the magic lies.

ok, so its not the exact quote (my memory is failin' me o' so badly) but hey, thats along the line! :)

now thats what i've always been looking for in a music.. lyrics before music. people should try listening to the song cry on my shoulder. the music sucks, the singer sucks, but the lyrics is fantastic.

and sometimes thats why i say my singing is good, though my friends don always think so! :P



from the cheeky,
Charps! :D

my brother

i didn't get to sleep until 7am this morning. spent my time watching a new video. i think shuning's right, im a video-addict. a hongkong one at that. :D

just when im watching halfway into the night, around 3am i heard noises. thought it was mom and quickly pretended to sleep with my pillow over my face and laptop down for hibernation. turn out to be bro and it scares me big time because... he's supposed to be in taiwan! wth is he doing home?!

turn out his plane is tonight. heh.

anyway upon knowing im not asleep he came into my room and talked to me about alot of things. i don know why, but after hearing all of it i suddenly find my brother a grown up man. it seems like he just suddenly grew up all of a sudden. no warning, no nothing. just poof! :)

i used to really, really hate him. because he is a violent, insensible and totally spoilt brat. if he cant get his way, he would gives u attitude and abuse his authority as a elder brother. it gets even worst when one time he was whacking me and hit my finger accidentally. my finger is now crooked. :(

there was many times i contemplated running away from home and even more times i wished i wasn't in this family.

but now i supposed things have changed a little. as stubborn as my mom can be. im glad she's there asking if i've eaten and showing concerns in little ways i've always overlooked and my brother who has grown up who is becoming more responsible.

in fact, recently he stopped borrowing money from me. woots. :D

and yes.. i still cant stand him eating up all my groceries at home. i still think he's a rat/pig reborn as a human. sigh!



from the blessed,
Charps. :D

我们都错了

我们都错了
以为只需奋不顾身
以为只要诚实去爱便会感动人
你背着海来看我的那天你曾多兴奋
我以为可将你捉紧

我们彼此伤得太深
以为只要凭着勇气便会感动神
你向着海离弃我的那天你何必应允
你仍主宰我一生

当满月很接近一个黄昏
我们已爱上彼此的灵魂
我被陶醉了到清醒方知道
有深深的一串伤痕

花正在枯榟任花继续枯榟
未说再见而牺牲
不想知道的教训
是我太害怕再和你斗争

爱你
像我这样爱有没有去料理悲伤的假期
谁去我们世界乘载我们那往昔
欢乐的笔记
如你是爱我面对我你怎么会躲避

在这冷漠世界没有更让我孤单的距离
如说爱情太美谁教我们会这般
失败的喘气

如你是爱我为我再创一个天地
我们都错了
以为只需奋不顾身
以为只要凭着勇气便会感动他

very touching song from my favourite hk drama, my date with a vampire. sometimes we thought we have it all, but life decides otherwise.

im so not cut out for this kinda stuffs. heh. :)

ren xing

I may have been attacked by the loser virus recently.. :(

Not only did I fall flat on my ..erm. face yesterday at the stage (because of the emcee's height) i also lost my voice today. Every single word I mutters is filled with reluctance and sounds so muffled although I thought it'd be quite sexy if i use it for the 1900-hotline. :)

i've got friends who loves jay for that reason too, although they never caught any balls of what he's singing about.

my lips are also swollen and has cracks at the side, proof of dehydration on my part for the past few days. i actually down-ed one whole kettle of water just now. i hope i won't get water retention! :(

...and i felt so ren xing at some of the decisions i've made.

i just wish that whatever i do right now would not go against my wish or make me feel unhappy unless i really, really is left with no choice.



from the ren-xing,
Charps.

bad day

The end of the it. fair is a good thing.

no more bargaining of prices and no more pushing around. damn, i hate it when people are so rude and they push you around. physically or not.

anyway i fell down today. felt the pain for several hours. my skin got scrapped off though im wearing jean. ouch! and news has it that commission is down, not as much as we thought..

and my tutee changed the time again. wtf. i think i will seriously quit this if she doesnt give me pay by the fifth lessons. lets just say i had enough of her attitude, acting hardworking in front of her dad and trying all excuses not to do anything after he left. omg..

why people so pretentious one!?



from the very confused,
Charps.

3rd of it.fair!

I am seriously considering getting aids for my damaged poor ear drums & vocal. I have to scream so loud, against the emcee who scream into the damn microphone and cover my ears, while making sure that the customer im conversing with can hear me clearly.

my body is also aching like hell, especially my shoulder and sole. i actually... actually sigh like the cat doing that thing under the block during the mating month when i finally found a place to sit in the train.

thank god, i didnt meow too loudly. :)

I met alot of funny people today again, like this ah pek who has alot of questions but we don't understand what he's talking about because it's too jumbled up and this couple who made me chuckled and laugh out loud at their stupidity and level of arrogance, of how they're so proud of their so-called intelligence.

today due to the overwhelming response i was on my toes all day. In fact, most of us only had lunch in the late evening! most of the time I wasn't pitching, but rather q-ing up for the orders. so what happen is this couple they wanted to get one and i was gonna throw in the order (im only 1 customer away) and since im helping the other customers it'd be faster. but the 2 was very, very arrogant.

they refused to even wait a minute (it's not even 30 secs yet) and the wife shouted in my ears with a very irritating tone (and no, i can't tolerate it because that was the moment the emcee didnt spoke for a long time.) and shouted.

"Can't we pay at the other cashiers!?"
and I replied "oh, no.. because we've threw in the order in this cashier so we're drawing goods from here and she give me a blardy stare, as if she is a ultra-god-cry-devil-howls super mei nu and said to me

"forget it! WE'RE LEAVING!" and I think she's waiting for me to chase after her and beg her by the leg to give me a chance and i'll give her first priority because after she left, I stood there and just waved byebye.

my colleague made an eye like this 0.0 and said "omfg, what are you doing?" and i told him what happened. i mean, come on la. who the hell you think you are. just because im earning a decent living from this doesnt mean im supposed to beg you like you're anyone. i don even care a hook about what variety of shit ass you are. hah!

so after all my customers are done, i saw the 2 shit ass q-ing up way behind and i was going towards another customer and i said

"hello, long Q huh?" and gave a face like ;) before I walked away.

I think.. I might get really irritating.. hahahahahahahahahahhaahhhahahaha because they were very irritated. :X

O!!! and did i mention that over the past 3 days i actually got complemented alot of times?! :X I'm so honoured actually.. haha. once is when the lady who got her order from me said to my supervisor

"this girl is very good!! within minutes catch my attention to buy already!!! i want say no also cannot!!" and i was like. hehe. later i shy how that face. :X

another is mr friendly musician today, francis and jerry today!

met francis and jerry in the afternoon but they wanted to go around and i didnt expect them to come back for me really! francis even make an effort to come back just to get my number because he say he thinks im really sincere. damn i hope he dont spam me.. lol.. sincere leh! :X because he actually questioned me alot and i didn't give up or anything unlike the others who just.. leave him alone.

ok, in a way saying i very pestering la.. -.-

then mr musician also!! he had a problem deciding which and which to buy and as much as i would like to earn 2 commission, i thought.. maybe i'd just choose the one i'd buy if im in his shoes. he bought it and even asked me if he should get a second one. but i told him to wait till the prices drop because.. i wouldnt ask a friend to buy now since the next it fair is just 2 months or so away.

he asked for my phone number and say he wanna treat me to a big feast.. :D *drools*

and lastly..

that guy at the 7-11. thanks to yatzid very classic "go buy drink!" after we knocked off everynight, we're visiting 7-11 every night too. everynight, without fail, i will drink the bottle finish before i pay for it. not because i don wan to pay ok, but the q is really, really long.

so first 2 days, the guy were like. u again! and once, when the scanner couldn't scan i accidentally blurted out "huh!? drink finish cannot scan one meh!?" and people laugh..

so today i was going like "aiye, nothing for you to scan. i drank loads of mineral water just now." and he smile smile smile until yatzid say "he miss you is it?" and i was like so damn pai seh, because yatzid was being really loud.

that.. !@$!@%!%!! but he's really nice. he, fred and kelvin would wait for me everytime before we walk to the station together, though im only on the same train with fred!

i will miss them very, very much after tomorrow. :(



from the sore-throat-sour-everywhere-and-a-bit-sadded,
Charps! :)

I.T Fair

Today's the 2nd day of the i.t fair. Heard that commission is higher than we initially thought and lunch provided was ok for the past 2 days. Met nice colleagues. who really really sabo you.

chicken mcnugget to fred for taking my customers to the counter. but nvm, i can afford it. :P

chicken mcnugget to yatzid for nudging me by the elbow when i stand next to his customer. hempf! :)

i think i like the working environment, despite the emcees being really loud (or should you say the DJ guy who dj-ed nice song but blast on the microphone deserves to be whacked upside down) because whenever the emcees speak, all of us felt like fainting.

or coughing blood. ;(

the in-charges are nice people who kept feeding us with food (but i rejected flatly only for one meal -- damn proud of it) and my colleagues are fun people. even the lady in purple today (yesterday is the pretty girl at the counter) is fun. we're all part-timers but she's in the redemption booth and i think she's really nice to get along with, just like most of the people there. weets!

and i really dread those people who goes to great lengths just to get some discount. they don't even care for dignity, in my opinion.

there's this lady and her hubby who kept humming to the price, but its like. hello.. its a it.fair already and the company's letting go at cheaper price. shouldn't your concern be on the functions and durability instead!?

1st they ask for discount - failed. 2nd they ask for free gifts - failed terribly. and then when my customer came back and said "hey, i want this this this" and i noted them i would be back later before i went to get the stock for the other customer, its already closing for the it.fair. so they came over and said 'ok, we want it' and tried a third attempt.. to get a different color bag (which is complimentary by the way) and Pamela, the pretty lady yesterday said "no more liao" in a very innocent-matter-of-fact manner.

that girl, scared me out of my wits. heng my supervisor dug out some under the garbage. i mean.. boxes. ;P

so the couple see that they can bargain no more and decides to leave sadly with a bruised ego. when they walk past a lucky draw they decided to try their hands at it, even though they are not entitled to it.

really, if my mama do this i will walk away and not turn back.

so ms pamela said "we recorded every single thing drawn out of that box.. i cant record it if you're not entitled to it." which is brillant. simply, brillant.

today, another 2 wanted discount today. they turn their charm on my supervisor but no, still can't. $2 discount only. LOL! it's damn funny how they looked when they failed to charm my supervisor..

im just glad that even though the work is tiring, im passed 2 days and going on the 3rd soon. in a couple of hours. i hope i get alot of sales, alot of smiles, alot of happiness and be a happy charps.

i hope i don see those people i wanna jipahorlikeesi.

O! and I met chun an (sihua's brother), the very lame robotics friend of mine (shit, forgotten his name) anyway he's working for sonicgear and cs's for pci. i also saw sasha with her friend at the it fair, when im having dinner and she poked me really hard. :(

sally and tiffany came to visit today! but actual fact is that stiff wanted to get a mp3 and router. aiyo, i knew she is bo xim. very very bo xim. even came to kajiao me with a customer. arsehole! :X



from the leg-sour-hand-sour-neck-sour-but-mood-sibei-sweet,
Charps! :D

Piggy bank, ring a bell...

Busy night for me. Spent 3 hours scheduling, calculating and estimating.

I hope I stay true to my words and stop binging, stop buying unnecessary items and start cracking. My bank gonna be so empty if I don't work & save up soon! :(

Will be reporting for work tomorrow morning. Gonna hang my laundry and get to bed soon. Wish me luck for tomorrow! :)

a friend, indeed!

this is what happen when your friend put this face and says its you. on top of it, he named it "fuck face" and save it in his lappie.

you see, afi you're my good friend. really. you make me laugh..

..but at times i just wish i could send a hammer down you! :D

antisocial

i was supposed to be on product trainin' today for the i.t fair, but they reckon the job's too easy for me and hence i'll just need to drag my butt to work on thursday.

and i changed the template to a simpler one, so i don think i would be making changes to it soon enough 'cept to update on the links. my gpa are out and it sucks big time. talk about missing an extra test and lesson.

grrr.

im still sour about it. and i made certain plans today. like taking up lessons during the next holidays. and.. many more.

played cz today, but the bad thing is that when im happily playin' away, it just gets disconnected within a 3sec warning. so i reckon i'll be better off playin' with the bots.

don feel shiok you know? especially with a bad shooter like me who finally can shoot somebody and the game is over. whoa, damn sian can?! :(

im really an antisocial arsehole, who is so self-centered i can't see who's behind me.


from the very anti-social-when-not-working,
Charps.

i dont wanna go..

the news came quickly. we're moving. to a new neighbourhood and moving closer to...

..my annoyin' uncle. :(

and im moving far away from bairavi, ah yi, tallie and my les clinques! faraway from everyone i knew since nong ago... i can really foresee myself strained at home and crying where's my movie kakis, missin' the occasional phone calls of "hey where are you pig, come out and have lunch together!" from my very lovely friends..

and yesterday after watching pursuit of happyness with adee, she commented that there's still a long time for me to move yet (in july) so i bet she won't be missing me! :(

thatheartlessgirl, imsonotgonnafriendheralready! hempf!

im very much filled with saddness, but i sincerely hope that santa claus bless me with a new wish soon.

may there be lots and lots and lots of hunks in my new neighbourhood. - and turn all the tiko peks into ... eh. bak chor mee uncle. (i have a thing for bak chor mee uncles. LOL!)



from the very soon-to-be mover,
Charps! :(

belated vday post

i know v-day's over but its too cute. :D

emo-ing isnt too good. emo songs are your worst friends ever! and oh my, i just got 2 very weird colleagues at work! life's been good, except for the emo-ing & cashless moments.. :)

是谁太勇敢说喜欢离别
只要今天不要明天眼睁睁看著
爱从指缝中溜走还说再见

不够时间好好来爱你..


from the emo-0-ing,
Charps!

working it out

im sicked. as in, i had a fever from the rain and the sore throat.. and im getting to the customer's place later at 8pm. not that i wanted such a weird timing but.. the customer has been calling me up since yesterday and i didn;t want to drag it.

i proposed the weekend mornings, or today morning/afternoon in fact but he insisted at night so i can't really do anything can i? but poor thing to my colleagues who have to bear with my frequent "im working today." and "nono, im not working today because of.." which hinders up the planning.

i know its so ma fan, but ... i just wished i worked today somewhere else. at least i'll still earn some money. sigh.

i haven't been thinking much lately, didn't have the time to but i've been dreaming. which makes me felt bad and regretful.

and my farecard is running low again! :( thanks to me because i've been diligently working lately. hah! :X



from the very ma fan,
Charps!

I'm fishy

Went out with Shuning yesterday. Had milk tea, which as usual gave me bad tummyache (i don know why) and dinner with hwee leng. We went for movie "Just follow law" before we picked Hwee leng from work and went home together.

it was a nice and relaxing day, plus i saw where sibehsian could have bungee jump from. shuning insisted to have the 2 poles photographed. i really don know why.

o! and i had a nice fish slice mee sua today!

From the happy fishy,
Charps! :D